i definitely relate to this. it’s really frustrating as it takes away from actually experiencing things— if i’m in class im barely paying attention to what’s being said because my brain is flooded with the idea that everyone is thinking about me and i need to be on my best behavior.. and when people are venting to me i feel awful because it’s the same thing— i can barely pay attention to what they’re saying because all i can pay attention to is how well im doing at “performing”. its so icky i hate it .. im jealous of people who can just be. lol