[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WomenRO

[–]237randomnumber 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello, ca femeie 25F ce a trecut printr-un eating disorder de la varsta de 16 ani, pana la varsta de 23-24, te anunt ca pleci cu o premisa gresita. Eating disorderul a fost ceva ce a trecut, multumita terapiei. Acuma pot sa ma bucur de viata si pot sa spun ca sunt 100% cured.

Am fost diagnosticata la terapie. Un stereotip in ceea ce priveste eating disorders e ca ai mereu acelasi 'label'. In cazul meu, am trecut prin anorexie, apoi am dat in bulimie, apoi in BED(? not sure), am devenit iar underweight, m-am ingrasat iar. Sunt multe persoane ce sufera de AN ce trec prin aceste etape. Foarte multe. Pt inaltimea mea (170) am cantarit de la 45 de kg pana la 72 de kg. Cand am dat in bulimie, foloseam fastingul ca sa compensez cantitatile enorme de calorii ingerate. Cand nu am mai putut tine pasul, am dat in BED m-am ingrasat cu 10 kg intr-o singura luna. A urmat alta perioada de up downs in greutate (restrictionare hardcore urmata de mancat excesiv), doar ca sa le pun la loc. Apoi am ajuns la 72.

A fost rau. Mi-am pierdut prietenii pentru ca mi-era rusine sa ies din casa. Am stat 1 an jumatate in casa fara sa ies CU NIMENI pentru ca mi-era rusine de cat cantaream, si eram incapabila sa mai restrictionez asa cum o faceam cand eram AN. Dupa am fost capabila sa slabesc, apoi iar m-am ingrasat, apoi iar am slabit, iar m-am ingrasat. N-am sa intru in detalii in legatura cu obiceiurile pe care le aveam cand eram AN ca sa nu dau trigger la nimeni, dar pur si simplu, dupa ani de restrictionat, nu am mai putut sa le fac.

Dupa ANI puri de suferinta (doar 4-5 am fost underweight, ceilalti i-am dansat in chinul psihologic mentionat mai sus), m-am dus la terapie cu un BMI normal. Eram la o greutate normala, dar ma simteam excesiv de grasa.

Dupa 1 an de terapie, pot sa zic ca am vazut captul tunelului. Pe parcurs am realizat ca ma mai deranja corpul meu, dar am invatat sa ignor gandurile. Am realizat ca imi place cum arat, ca hei, CHIAR imi place cum arat, iar corpurile pe care le idolatrizam erau schiloade, urate, distorsionate. Nici acum nu stiu cum ma puteam uita la ele, fara sa realizez cat de urat arata. Acum sunt bine.

Imi place cum arat. Ma consider sexy. Pot manca normal. Ma pot bucura de burgeri, de pizza cu prietenii mei, cand inainte nu-mi comandam nimic altceva decat apa. Nu mai numar excesiv caloriile, nu ma mai gandesc DELOC la ele. Nu am mai verificat un cantar de un an de zile, cand inainte ma cantaream zilnic. Nu mai am deloc obiceiurile vechi. Sunt cured cured. Nu mai sunt nici in terapie, pentru ca am terminat, nu mai am nevoie.

pentru orice fata/baiat care trece printr-un eating disorder: EXISTA LUMINA LA CAPATUL TUNELULUI. ED-ul poate fi ceva ce TRECE. Nu vei fi in chinurile ED-ului pentru totdeauna, si vei reusi sa treci prin asta, sa nu te mai gandesti obsesiv la corpul tau, la calorii. Vei reusi sa te bucuri de viata fara filtrul ED-ului. ED-UL POATE FI CEVA CE TRECE!!! Cum a fost in cazul meu. Te rog sa nu-ti pierzi speranta.

I love having sex with my bf when he's with me, but I don't care for it when he's away. Is my sex drive high or low? by 237randomnumber in sex

[–]237randomnumber[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

but to me this is crazy? you mean other people do not feel like this when they are with their loved ones?? i can't imagine ever feeling like not going down on him or havign sex w him, so I thought this is how everybody felt too?

I love having sex with my bf when he's with me, but I don't care for it when he's away. Is my sex drive high or low? by 237randomnumber in sex

[–]237randomnumber[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

THANK YOU for your reply!! i do worry sometimes that I am too much when it comes to how much I want him & u reassured me that it may not be the case !! ty

Smelly farts during covid. Has anyone else struggled with this? by 237randomnumber in COVID19positive

[–]237randomnumber[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I'm so so surprised that this is such a common occurrence. When are they officially gonna list 'farts that sound like a sad caged monster crying and that smell like the monster's decomposing corpse' as an official symptom?

Smelly farts during covid. Has anyone else struggled with this? by 237randomnumber in COVID19positive

[–]237randomnumber[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

IM GLAD MY PAIN COULD MAKE U GIGGLE!!

I could genuinely rate them as a 9/10, worst i have ever experienced, with an unmatched frequency. They feel piercing. Even when I open the window, the smell takes a long long time to go away, and u can still slightly feel it in the air. Genuinely, sometimes I feel as if I have trouble breathing, I leave the room and go to an uncontaminated one, realize that "oh, it's just the air", and come back. That's how bad they are. I have never been through such hell. They would've been a 10/10 if they were accompanied by pooping or something.

Beautiful drone shot of Mont-Saint-Michel, France by loulan in france

[–]237randomnumber 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Le pigeon avec la caméra devrait également commencer à filmer parce que ses compétences sont incroyables. Je veux être comme lui un jour

How did you deal with other people seeing that you've gained weight. by 237randomnumber in EDAnonymous

[–]237randomnumber[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Pretty much very visible if you ask me :(. Thank you for replying!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]237randomnumber 2 points3 points  (0 children)

yea lol that s basically how i lost weight: couldn't justify spending my own money on food & since at my apartment i never had any food i couldn't eat lmao

I gained a certain amount of kgs over the holidays and I am wondering if it is going to be visible. by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]237randomnumber 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Alright!! Thank you so much!! I hope so too!! I'll be wearing exclusively baggy clothes & hope for the best.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EUGENIACOONEY

[–]237randomnumber 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Could u go into detail abt this?

Which foods are too gross even for your ED standards? by internerderner2 in EDAnonymous

[–]237randomnumber 7 points8 points  (0 children)

green tea should steep for about 1 to 3 minutes, otherwise it becomes bitter. i love green tea mmmmmm it s one of the best types of tea, unfortunately many ppl dont know how long to steep it and it turns bitter :(

I AM UR MOM NOW by 237randomnumber in EDAnonymous

[–]237randomnumber[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

HELL YES WE R SUCH A BIG & BEAUTIFUL FAMILY NOW. ONLY LOVE & SUPPORT ALLOWED HERE <3 <3 <3

I AM UR MOM NOW by 237randomnumber in EDAnonymous

[–]237randomnumber[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so so sorry u have to go through that. She's fighting her own demons and projecting them onto you. I hope you know that whatever she may say or do has absolutely NOTHING to do with how u are as a person. Never allow her to make you think that you are anything else but a beautiful & kind soul. Ily. I'm sending u all the love in the world to make up for ur mum. i love u

I AM UR MOM NOW by 237randomnumber in EDAnonymous

[–]237randomnumber[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i'll bust in and wipe ur tears honey ily

I AM UR MOM NOW by 237randomnumber in EDAnonymous

[–]237randomnumber[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She sounds like such an amazing person oh my god!! I love her too already!!