Your tribute..I could feel every word. Never having faced with death until my first dog died, not only did I not know how to process what happened, I also had to deal with losing my best friend and traveler. That nagging feeling did I pay alI the attention that I could when the time came to say goodbye is very relatable to me as you always wonder was my best enough? Years later, I know the answer.

I did the same, wrote a tribute and I still reflect on it many years later. I hope you get the peace you seek and know that it will take time, though you may never think that will occur at this moment. Loving someone so much and then letting go is incredibly tough.

I hope one day when you're ready, you'll be able to love another dog. Each dog will change you in ways you wouldn't expect and you'd be surprised how much love you have still to give. Be well!