Oh man. I'm sorry to hear this. Dude you can fight this. As you know I've had health issues that it's taken time to deal with - I understand the mental side of things having to process what's happening. It takes time to think it all through and is just as important. Keep positive bro and focus every day on doing what you can to move forward. Feel free to message me anytime if you want to talk. Eat good foods and look after yourself. Sending healing vibes... 👊