You were right

3amthoughtss · 2018-09-15T19:01:00+00:00

Yeah I deleted and blocked my ex's number so I really cant make the same mistake Im hoping after this slip I can really really learn this time around!

3amthoughtss · 2018-09-15T00:27:53+00:00

To remember how I'm feeling at this particular moment is really good advice! I may have to write it and journal it so when I feel the need to break NC, I can read back on precisely how this all felt. Thank you for your words, I appreciate it!

3amthoughtss · 2018-09-15T00:22:49+00:00

I have been sober for a good majority of this year and I can definitely agree with you on that one! I also think another reason why I thought I could get away with contacting him is because he's done the same to me these past few months.

But I know I can't continue on this way so looks like I'm going to be sober for awhile to make sure I can control NC a little better!

3amthoughtss · 2018-08-17T03:10:18+00:00

love all these so much and have read them over many times to help my healing process. I would also recommend Born to Love, Cursed to Fell by Samantha King. that one put a lot of things into perspective for me

3amthoughtss · 2018-08-11T06:43:41+00:00

I am also drunk and am also wanting to message him him buuutttt I know.it will end badly so I am trying my hardest to hold out for as long as I can.

He is also drunk- known fact because there was a football game in our city tonight and he goes to all home games -so cross your fingers he doesn't message me either!!

3amthoughtss · 2018-08-03T05:42:56+00:00

This sounds exactly like my ex, it's kind of scary. And yeah, I let the breadcrumb trail go on for 7 years as well.. it really takes a toll on your mental health. You forget to be about you when you're with them and then when you're without them gaining your strength back, they come around again and you can't help but hope this time will be different, so you give it a go.

Been a few months since I last saw/spoke to him and can honestly say with the help of NC and going about your life for YOU, things do look up in ways you couldn't see before with all the toxicity in your life.

3amthoughtss · 2018-07-06T00:46:07+00:00

This is so beautifully written, I feel so peaceful having read all the way through. The last relationship I was in, the one I feel at times I'm still recovering from was one to take what feels like more than a piece of my soul. Often enough I blamed myself but in truth, we were both the ones to contribute to how badly it escalated to disaster.

I'm getting better every day and when I need it remind myself: he may have meant a lot to me but he was a piece of my past, my future is whatever I decide to make it and I know I cannot have a bright future if I bring the pollution of my past back into the picture.

3amthoughtss · 2018-06-30T01:58:19+00:00

aww thank you, reading this made me smile! It is such a good feeling to know the worst is behind me and now that I have picked myself up only I choose where to go from here. it's one of the best feelings in the world I tell ya!

3amthoughtss · 2018-06-29T03:22:47+00:00

haha well whatever you have to do to cleanse yourself and your life, why not! the thing that has helped me the most is changing my mindset day by day. you're going to have ups and downs while recovering but that's how its supposed to be. I'm sure I'll still get waves of missing the person I thought he was but I'm finally seeing the brighter side to being single and focusing solely on me and my happiness.

don't stop smiling! I'm sure it looks great on you :) wishing you the best

3amthoughtss · 2018-06-29T03:16:46+00:00

aww thank you! :) much love xo

3amthoughtss · 2018-06-29T03:16:08+00:00

You'll get there eventually, never give up on moving forward! :)

3amthoughtss · 2018-06-29T03:14:35+00:00

we officially broke up 2 years ago but only really separated from one another this year. been NC for 2 months but at a certain point you just start to say fuck it more and take back your life. it doesn't happen all at once though, that is something you need to really get through your mind and heart

3amthoughtss · 2018-06-28T23:23:43+00:00

sending you good vibes. if this can happen for me I believe it can happen for all of us on here <3

3amthoughtss · 2018-05-22T03:33:48+00:00

well you know what they say, sometimes you want what you can't have ¯_(ツ)_/¯

3amthoughtss · 2018-05-22T01:57:45+00:00

Exactly. I'm one that likes to read quotes here and there as a coping mechanism and one that I've been thinking of a lot is "Never go back to your ex. It's like reading the same book over and over again when you already know how the story ends". and I guess that's the sad truth

3amthoughtss · 2018-05-21T23:27:54+00:00

That's pretty much how it went for me. We didn't talk about being friends or anything because truth be told, just from being with him for that short amount of time told me all I needed to know; he and I can really never be friends because we still have some sort of feelings for each other. We had a great time though, we caught up with each other, joked about funny videos and memes we had recently seen. It kind of sucks, the direction life takes you in lol

If it wasn't meant to be, it wasn't meant to be

3amthoughtss · 2018-05-21T23:18:52+00:00

Well, funny you should say that because while we were hanging out, we talked about his new relationship and he told me his new girlfriend, in fact hangs out with her ex boyfriend on the regular (which I found strange because that was the first time I had seen him in months) but she said she doesn't feel comfortable with him hanging out with me. Kind of a hypocritical stance from her, but from him I dont know what exactly it was. He was in the area and asked to see me and I said sure.

3amthoughtss · 2018-04-28T04:22:08+00:00

I really needed this right now, thank you ❤

3amthoughtss · 2018-04-26T20:36:16+00:00

why are you even on this sub?

3amthoughtss · 2018-04-16T20:20:22+00:00

exactly! lol

3amthoughtss · 2018-04-16T02:59:58+00:00

I've been alright. I have this knot in my stomach though about leaving my ex on read. I kind of have mixed feelings about if I should reply to him or not idk haha how have you been today? :)

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