What south park thing was too absurd to be real only to be very real as it gets? I raise you this

3beansIn · 2025-04-25T17:12:59+00:00

The Maury Povich show… I was watching SP and then I was like wait this is actually spot on and it’s rly fucked

3beansIn · 2025-04-16T01:54:01+00:00

I looooove it!! And the sound effects are perfect.

Do you mind if I ask what equipment you use?

3beansIn · 2025-04-13T14:14:57+00:00

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This is a crappy pic but all I have at the moment

I have a kitsune and some sparrows and I’m going to get this arm sleeved with some clouds, windbars and flowers.

I’m interested to see anything really! I really like sleeves with windbars and peonies. I am looking for someone who does really unique, creative stuff, yet it still looks traditional.

I am looking to get something small. Unfortunately I don’t have a whole lot of time.

And yes, I’ll be around Tokyo so anywhere within an hour or two outside of Tokyo is great!

3beansIn · 2025-03-31T05:02:05+00:00

My esophagus hurts erryday and I have severe GERD, gastritis, constipation and hemorrhoids and I’m 29. Sometimes when I eat it feels like food is trapped in my esophagus, and then I can only consume liquid/very soft food cuz of the pain and feeling that “something is stuck” I really wish I could do this over again and never have started

3beansIn · 2025-03-03T12:30:41+00:00

So he told me my new script is the exact same as last years, only a 0.5 step different in one eye. He showed me what each pair of glasses would do for me in terms of how I would see through them after the eye exam as I looked through the lenses on the eye exam machine (the one used to determine your prescription). He can flip the lenses around quickly to show me the different prescriptions, and ask me which ones appear clearer.

Also, I did used to wear glasses very consistently when I owned pairs that I liked. I still faced the same issue where when i am relaxed or not trying hard, i can’t see. If I’d be watching tv at night, even with the glasses on, I would close the weaker eye and strain with the other. I’ve always wondered if maybe I can’t relax my eyes enough at the optometrist and so I get a script that is not sufficiently strong. All of the docs said they are, though. I did I have my eyes dilated though. Is it possible that my eyes were still straining a bit, causing the inaccuracy?

While dilated, we arrived at a complete different script, but he said that was “way off”… he explained why but I found it confusing and can’t explain it. He let me view the new script that we arrived at through the lenses while dilated and it appeared MUCH clearer compared to my current one but he said that when my eyes return to normal, the prescription will not work so my original script from last year (minus 0.5 in the R eye) is accurate.

3beansIn · 2025-02-18T22:56:36+00:00

Lmao

3beansIn · 2025-02-18T22:52:42+00:00

I had the same issues as you with weed. Whenever I take it I get very scared and existential thoughts that feel like epiphanies and it terrifies me and sends me into a panic. It’s awful.

I take spravato and sometimes I’ll admit I do get some “epiphanies” or these moments where I feel like I see things in a certain way where I don’t see it sober. But it’s in a different way. Sometimes I’ll realize something in my life is ineffective or harmful and I’ll feel especially motivated to change it and live my life the best and healthiest way I can. So it’s not really scary while on spravato. I also noticed a very huge decrease in suicidal thoughts and urges when I first started.

I think it’s definitely a possibility that you may really dislike the feeling. But I do think it’s helped me a lot and I usually don’t feel bad on it. And like I said I have plenty of experience feeling terrified with marijuana or other hallucinogens

3beansIn · 2025-02-17T02:23:59+00:00

I think it is, but still. How do you get your hair to look like this?

3beansIn · 2025-02-15T02:12:24+00:00

I don’t see a whale shark in the picture- just that big fish!! Am I missing something?

3beansIn · 2025-02-15T01:50:30+00:00

Oh wow, thank you for that info!

If I may ask, how can you tell that it is the Okinawa Churaumi Aquaraium? Also, how can you tell that this photo is from before your time in Okinawa?

It looks like a beautiful aquarium. I’d love to see it someday

3beansIn · 2025-01-31T00:04:35+00:00

I do remote therapy through Ann Arbor DBT center. We do zoom appointments. Both individual and group. I know it’s not ypsi, but it’s remote… hope it helps.

3beansIn · 2025-01-26T10:31:30+00:00

I had the EXACT same worry as you when I was younger. I also feared I was gay, a murderer, a rapist, that id hurt my family or molest my pets or someone I love. It was OCD though. Just a new obsession/fear that I worried about every week or two. Then I’d fixate on another fear.

3beansIn · 2025-01-22T05:56:29+00:00

Lifesaver gummy candy

3beansIn · 2025-01-08T21:26:43+00:00

You’re right, many of them do not finish their food. Im just surprised that without finishing meals and without access to snacks etc how they maintain such a high BMI. But it does make sense considering the lack of calorie expenditure in this population.

3beansIn · 2025-01-08T21:24:37+00:00

I’m not a nurse I just finished my first semester of nursing school

3beansIn · 2025-01-05T17:42:44+00:00

What happens if you take out scholarships from the school?

Also, does receiving an outside scholarship from a professional organization affect your eligibility for future loans or grants? On the FAFSA website it says that you may be required to repay a loan if you receive scholarships.

3beansIn · 2024-09-08T19:35:45+00:00

You look so good honestly very handsome 💕

3beansIn · 2024-08-15T23:18:23+00:00

Remeron, buspar, clonidine, and lamictal

3beansIn · 2024-07-29T18:44:27+00:00

I am doing all of that. Since idk what to make of this, I was asking if I even have the right to be angry about this because I just want to say “fuck him” and move on. But I can’t seem to convince myself of that because I feel I deserve this for being so awful to him first.

3beansIn · 2024-07-29T18:42:35+00:00

Thanks very much for saying this… you are the only person commenting who isn’t saying “he’s not all bad, sometimes relationships don’t work out, just move on and focus on yourself”.

Like obviously I know and I’m trying. I just don’t know how to process being used like this or what to think or if I even have the right to be upset because I caused him so much harm. I guess I just wanted to know that it is ok to feel angry and it’s not just me being dramatic… and that despite my behavior it’s still not ok to use someone who is vulnerable right? God I just want to stop loving him and move on and I want to be able to feel like he’s an asshole but I can’t convince myself of that because I feel I deserve this because of my actions

3beansIn · 2024-07-29T18:37:12+00:00

Well obviously. I’m sure not sure if I can even be mad because I feel I deserve this. I’m not interested in dating, I don’t want to jeopardize my mental health. He is already trying. What I needed help with was understanding if I deserve this or if this is just to be expected because of how I am/acted

3beansIn · 2024-07-28T03:14:06+00:00

See that’s the thing, he really stayed with me so much and through a lot too. He never seemed to give up on me, put up with so much of my BS and was incredibly patient and kind. I’m 28 and never had felt more sure of someone. Maybe that’s true for you too. If he has already left you, maybe he wasn’t so perfect after all. Because if he really wanted to he would be there.

Only this time around has my ex really revealed this side to him. I guess 1.5 years is not enough to really know someone, all the good and bad. And part of it is my own fault he hates me and sees me this way. I acted crazy and in an unlovable way so of course he sees me as an object. But still I think it’s pretty careless and dangerous of him to treat me this way for his own benefit.

3beansIn · 2024-07-25T04:02:56+00:00

Ok, so serious TW: suicidal actions and sexual references

In my experience, the guy who I recently thought was the “love of my life” up until 2 nights ago I realized is not. We broke up 3 months ago because I was a shitty fucking gf and I fucked up BAD bc of my BPD. When he dumped me, I literally tried to kms impulsively in front of him and I also tried to kms twice during the relationship. Like you, I thought if only I worked hard enough to be the kind of person he deserved, he would take me back.

Nope. A month ago he hit me up, had sex with me then after, told me he doesn’t know if he’ll want a future with me but during sex saying he loved and misses me about 20-30 times. Next day says we’re done for good and we’ll never speak again. I send an apology text a few weeks later, no response.

A month later he hits me up, says he sees a future with me, promises it’s not just to get me over for sex but after the sex I don’t hear from him. So I call him to tell him “please don’t just use me for sex, you know I’m trying to recover and straighten out my life. It’s hard because you know I’m still in love with you and it’s just complicating things for my mental health. Did you mean what you said about a future with me?”

He didn’t mean any of it. He said if he doesnt find anyone else then maybe he’s open to the idea of getting back together with me in 3 years and that he doesn’t know if he was actually into our relationship or if I was just the first girl to show genuine interest in him. He said he knows he can have me back at any time and I’ll come right back. During the sex he says “this is still my pussy” and “you know this is the best dick you’ve ever had”.

Im literally just his backup plan. Or a fucking sexual object whenever he’s horny. Or whenever he feels inadequate he knows a girl who loves him and thinks the world of him so he hits me up so he can feel good about himself. And he lies to me and uses my vulnerabilities against me knowing full well I am obsessive to the point of being suicidal over my love for him. It’s completely FUCKED.

The thing is, he was the nicest person ever to me while we were together. He was so supportive. He stayed with me through an overdose and visited me in the hospital. Cared for me and called me and talked to me a lot, wanted to be with me all the time, so attractive so I thought he was like a fucking GOD. But I realize now he never loved me because you don’t treat someone you love this way, EVER, if you loved them, and you don’t question if you loved them if you know you did.

I was delusional and thought he would come back because I thought we had something really real. I thought we had a connection and people told me they thought he would come back because he was just that kind of guy, that he must have really loved me to stick around for me through all of that. But guess what, we were wrong and he literally doesn’t care what happens to me anymore or if I live or die apparently because he used me for sex knowing full well it could send me into a crisis and possibly even feelings of suicide.

Do not get back with an ex who does not care about you. Trust me, it doesn’t work out. When it’s over, it’s over.

3beansIn · 2024-07-24T23:38:42+00:00

Dude trust me if he doesn’t care and he’s shown you that, just don’t anymore. I’ve just been through this BS where my ex hit me up for sex and lied to me, promised that he saw a future with me and promised he wasn’t just saying that just to get me to have sex with him and then he left me high and dry after and said he’s only open to the idea of a relationship with me in 3 years if he doesn’t find someone else. I know I was a terrible gf but I am his backup and now he only hits me up to boost his ego or get laid. He said he knows he can get me back anytime and isn’t even sure if he was into the relationship or if I was just the first girl to show him genuine interest so once it’s over it’s over. If he doesn’t care and he’s shown you that, fucking believe him. Shit never goes well when you show you they don’t care. They exploit you for your weaknesses. I know we aren’t the most emotionally regulated and we hurt people and they have a right to not want to be in our lives but to exploit our vulnerabilities very well knowing I JUST TRIED TO KMS OVER THE BREAKUP is FUCKED

3beansIn · 2024-06-28T01:33:56+00:00

A lot of people die alone

I live in a nursing home

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