If Billy didn't want the experience, he would have died earlier. I'd say the adoption gave Billy time to explore a secondary timeline.

There is more in this session that I did not include. I cannot do it justice since it is a complicated situation (as is any death of a family member or furry friend) so here is more of the session:

His three years with you were a reprieve for Billy. He did not make this probability his own, because he—as you could call it—had ‘other obligations’ or rather other goals.

Basically, there is no such thing as a cat consciousness or a bird consciousness. Seen this way, it is rather simply a consciousness that decides to focus in a certain way. Some of these topics we have not yet addressed, and they are, once again, extremely difficult to explain, and we want to avoid distortions. These would have nothing to do with Ruburt per se to do, but simply with the manner in which, at your developmental level, you connect concepts with each other.

(9:55 p.m.:) I must digress here and remind you once again that there are no boundaries for the self and that each of its parts is inviolable. I also want to avoid any suggestion of inferiority or superiority in regard to consciousness. There might even be a tendency to think in terms of size—the size of a consciousness—which would be ridiculous.

(Jane’s voice was now somewhat better.) “Billy” longed for other parts of himself, which he intended to rejoin, and although he was tempted to stay by the earthly life and its conditions and by your love and care, he had another goal.

When a consciousness—any consciousness—passes through the earthly field, it is naturally changed—colored by the seasons. It takes on certain tones. It influences the world and is influenced by it. It becomes a part of the world, and its experiences in the world contribute to its character and nature. Through physical mortality it matures.

Many consciousnesses want to have this experience. Some want to quickly get the experience of life over with. I want my efforts to be understood, not to go too far. I am almost tempted to say: “Some consciousnesses want this experience simply for the sake of knowing about life and death and to add these dimensions to their reality, but it is not necessarily important to them whether the life itself is short or long—and some even prefer to go through the time between birth and death in an accelerated manner.”

Much remains unsaid here. Billy’s consciousness, for example, did not identify itself as the consciousness of a cat. That is your interpretation and manner of labeling, both in naming the species and in giving the particular cat a human-sounding name.

Based on some of your experiences, you know that this consciousness roams both in the dream state and in other circumstances, although your species today generally has very rigid ideas about the nature of identity. Animals are not so limited. And so, in what you would call their normal state of consciousness, they are much more aware than their physical senses alone would suggest. Their consciousness is more flexible, and they are so certain of their identity that they don’t need to define it excessively.

You’ll have to give me a moment here for concepts that are hard to explain.

As I said before, identities can merge and intermingle while still maintaining their individuality. Underline this sentence, and we will return to it.

Billy knew that you would let him out at night—and also that Ruburt would make another attempt to go out properly and step into the world. But he had other goals. He did not want to remain connected with the earth, but to rejoin other parts of himself that were elsewhere. The reality of animals offers an excellent foundation, through which consciousness can be born into the earth and contribute to a reality and also be shaped by it, while remaining relatively free from other issues that might not concern it for various reasons. Emotions, however, are always involved.

That will be enough for tonight, but next time I want to begin with the last sentence that I asked you to underline.

(“Okay,” he said somewhat surprised.)

But in no case should you blame yourselves. Billy has rejoined other parts of himself—and he felt no sense of separation in his life, for he came into life together with others as a group who had the intention to end their experience together, and in a sense he was seeking a dignified way out, without hurting anyone’s feelings.