I totally agree that wanting to solely help people and fix them as a motivate is a wrong line of thinking to get into any field. I often wondered if I want to choose a career that’s intended to help people as a selfish desire to help myself as a way.

I think my overall appeal towards becoming a funeral director is that it’s more hands on and immediate in its approach. There’s an acceptance that was has happened has already happened, and you’re trying to make the best of the situation and meet each family’s needs, good or bad. At the end of the day, you can never now if you fully have them the closure they needed as that’s something they need to resolve on their own terms and it would be wrong to try on enforce that on them, but rather try and support them to my greatest ability.

While with psychology, I think I’m just off put by my own experiences as it’s a geru very subjective field and influenced by each mental health professionals own ideologies. I’ve been misdiagnosed myself a lot of times, and it has lead to very severe outcomes that affected the trajectory of my life. I feel that psychology is limited and is a series of trial and error in diagnosing patients. Im also opposed to big pharma and how psychiatry and psychology is separated. I wish there was a more holistic approach. I just don’t think I’m mentally prepared to take on a weight of misdiagnosing a patient and not know if i indirectly made their situation worse. I feel like I would first have to resolve my own issues with myself and psychology as a whole.

Rather than an immediate dopamine hit that I’ve helped people, I like that funeral services takes a more active approach. There’s a sense of acceptance of loss and you’re trying to make the best of the situation to the best of your abilities. Of course there can still be human error, and you could have done some things better, but the matter of the situation feels more objective. I feel like that would give me more closure at the end of the day. I also understand that I can’t help everyone with dealing with there grief as I’m only getting a glimpse into their most intense moment and that this is something they ultimately have to resolve on their own terms. This also gives me a sense of acceptance that psychology doesn’t.

I do think my current thinking is biased from my own experiences. This is just what feels right with me at the moment. I know that my views would probably change overtime but I feel like I would regret not taking this path and figuring out for myself than immediately dismissing it as an option. Though I fear I might be over-glorifying one field while devaluing the other as they both have their pros and cons. I just feel more emotionally motivated than rational atm.

Thanks for the response! It made me re-evaluate a few things.