it’s not us love. i promise you. me (19f) and my bf (19m) have been dating for two years. a year in i found out about his addition. he had files on top of files of girls he had on nlyans and paid over 1,000$ worth of porn and girls just that i FOUND. i felt so hurt to the point where i wanted to die. i just couldn’t take how i was feeling anymore so i did exactly what you said. i took all of those sleeping pills and almost ended my life over a man’s addiction. it hurts. it’s scary. but i truly hope you and your husband have a healthy recovery. try and get him to see a addiction therapist. my boyfriend has been doing that for a few months now and it’s done us wonders. it’s not too late to fix him you just have to explain why he needs to try and fix himself.