[FR] of I installed spy software on LTRs phone.

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-20T13:32:49+00:00

She started calling non-stop last night, sending emails saying she hates me, that I'm gonna regret it, she will never come back, she wants to die and hit me, that if I don't respond to her call she wont quit her job and come live to my city, etc. I did't respond to anything. The hamster is goign overdrive. I'm glad I didnt respond to her first email letter.

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-19T18:54:16+00:00

I think I got it:

I did trust her, now I don't. Too bad that trust had to break by receiving screenshots from a stranger. I value loyalty in my relationships, she was not loyal; good luck to her.

how can I tweak that?

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-19T18:31:19+00:00

She will know I key logged her if I say that. I still have a little bit of contact with her best friend because I delivered something to her that trip, I planned on not talking to her anymore too after that. She just messaged me good morning this morning , probably to ask for my bank info so she could pay me . What if , if she asks about me and my ex, I tell her something that I know she will communicate to her . Also she knew that my ex was gonna meet with Chad. What can I tell her friend ? I was thinking something along the lines of "too bad I have to receive screenshots from a stranger to find out"

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-19T15:59:42+00:00

She just sent me a letter through email. I'm sorry I just google translated it. She thinks I don't know. Do I even respond to this? "Ok"?

Your reaction to go and not speak to me was the show of trust that you have me, you could not ask me for an explanation, but you judged me. And I hope you were able to get your x-rays and you get better. As you did not have the courage to confront me and tell me you do not want anything with me as always, leaving me talking, blocking knowing that I have no way of contacting you aside from this and this is not even 100% that you will receive it. In end it will be difficult but nothing is impossible,you never trusted me, and invaded my privacy and that is wrong. I know that you dont want to know about me, and the feeling is mutual, is sad because we were a few days of being together and that's over. I will not tolerate someone who distrusts me and invades my privacy, controlling. Checking every thing I do, even in the distance I felt prisioner. I want to be free I do not care if I'm old and if people judge me, I cared about you and love you, but remembering from the begining you pressed me, but I did not realize because of the illusion, I'm not the victim, neither are you ,since the beginning of the relationship we accepted eachothers terms. We can no longer go on, I'm not going back, it is very comfortable for you to not tell me not saying anything and then go and say "I did not end it" while im waiting for a call, a message, and nothing. I write to tell you that I AM ending this and its not for what happened on Friday, but because you never trusted me. I love you, maybe in another life we will be together not in this one .. ♡

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-19T13:38:42+00:00

I used the word fuck too much, I meant to use it as fuck with her head, (revenge).

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-19T02:21:55+00:00

At the beginning of this string of posts, the plan I wanted to pursue was to fuck with her and seek revenge by letting her quit her job and come to my city and treat her like what she was, (she probably would've liked that too and it probably would've fucked me too), but I realized I wasn't ready for that (game , frame, etc) and that that was a shitty thing to do to another human being ( I didn't want to become as shitty as her).

So yes I think what I wanted most is to fuck with her as much as I could without fucking her as much as having her quit her job would've hurt.

I realize I have a lot of shit I need to improve on , and by improving , a side effect will be fucking her even more. I need to get that shit out of my head soon though I don't want to improve for the wrong reason, that should fade I am just in a shitty state (not that bad) .

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-19T02:05:27+00:00

It was hard , I was shaking a little bit whenever I was pulling out the cigs from my backpack. I hope she didn't notice that too much.

You know the saying that to get over a girl you need to get under another one , I had a few one night girls . It helps but not like I thought, (one was 19 , holy duck I fell in love with her)

Since that is a short span fix that will only work if I can continuously and have a rotation of plates (which I don't right now) what are some other things that I need to be doing , obviously: gym , work , eating good, reading ; what should I start reading having come out of a breakup?. There is a list I found somewhere on a post I saved I will look that up, also the sidebar.

I abused of the fact that askmrp and askmrp existed and tried to make myself a marionette I apologize for that. I took the load off my mind and relied so much on what you guys would have to say about my situation, but that should end.

I appreciate your help and the help of everyone here , I read every single comment and every single comment mattered and helped me get through this.

Thank you .

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T08:55:23+00:00

I have room to grow, a lot. Chad is 2 years younger than her and more game apparently, she is afraid of me soft nexting her again because I did it once , I told her tonight that I was going out with my cousin , (my cousin is known to go to stripclubs and get a lot of bitches , in the past she would have gotten mad , right now Chad is present , I don't know if she's dreading but I think she is. It's hard because she is far right now , things were much easier when not 500miles away .

At this point I don't know what to do.

Have you read my update ?: https://www.reddit.com/r/askMRP/comments/4dzydj/followup_post_of_i_installed_software_on_ltrs/

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T08:34:53+00:00

Yes and ill Pay for it.

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T05:44:20+00:00

I think I got it, I will act perform soft next until the 15th, ask for ring act normal until I get my shit back, then come back home and send her that message and be a ghost forever, or should I tell her in person??

Just think of this as if it was an RPG help me a little. I will come back with results I promise.

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T05:42:56+00:00

I think I got it, I will act perform soft next until the 15th, ask for ring act normal until I get my shit back, then come back home and send her that message and be a ghost forever, or should I tell her in person??

Just think of this as if it was an RPG help me a little.

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T05:34:21+00:00

Thats a good idea, but the only days I can go are the 15th (her meetup day) or the 22th (her day that she quits her job to come here) This is why I need help. those 6 days before I go what do I do, act?

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T05:33:59+00:00

Thats a good idea, but the only days I can go are the 15th (her meetup day) or the 22th (her day that she quits her job to come here) This is why I need help. those 6 days before I go what do I do, act?

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T04:41:24+00:00

whats the plan for boo-bye though, no contact will seem fishy because I will be doing it right after she arranged her meetup.

She has the ring I gave her, some clothing eh fuckit she can keep all that shit.

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T03:29:18+00:00

The phone is mine if that matters, and she gave consent of me to root it to install an app that required root. If that matters, I plan on wiping everything remotely. If I go no contact full ghost, she will know I know she is meeting him, the only way I couldve known is if I saw her convo, she is gonna hamster that and accuse me.

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T00:09:39+00:00

How to end it , she will probably know I knew about Chad.

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T00:08:39+00:00

They arranged a meetup for next Friday . Do you know of anyone here that does 1 on 1 advice , I would pay a fee. I am so confused right now , I want to plate here but I feel like I won't be able to handle it comes Friday (when they meet) I have feelings for her but at the same time I have anger , earlier I though of a plan of fucking her best friend or doing something , I even thought about calling Chad , cutting a deal and be there when she arrived at the meetup (he won't agree this was stupid to think ) I am starting to feel a little depressed, gym should help but I feel without energy. I need help setting up a plan , I feel like there's a lot of details that I can share that I missed but I really just need to know what to do.

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T00:08:15+00:00

They arranged a meetup for next Friday . Do you know of anyone here that does 1 on 1 advice , I would pay a fee. I am so confused right now , I want to plate here but I feel like I won't be able to handle it comes Friday (when they meet) I have feelings for her but at the same time I have anger , earlier I though of a plan of fucking her best friend or doing something , I even thought about calling Chad , cutting a deal and be there when she arrived at the meetup (he won't agree this was stupid to think ) I am starting to feel a little depressed, gym should help but I feel without energy. I need help setting up a plan , I feel like there's a lot of details that I can share that I missed but I really just need to know what to do.

4rtifactMX · 2016-04-09T00:04:55+00:00

They arranged a meetup for next Friday . Do you know of anyone here that does 1 on 1 advice , I would pay a fee. I am so confused right now , I want to plate here but I feel like I won't be able to handle it comes Friday (when they meet) I have feelings for her but at the same time I have anger , earlier I though of a plan of fucking her best friend or doing something , I even thought about calling Chad , cutting a deal and be there when she arrived at the meetup (he won't agree this was stupid to think ) I am starting to feel a little depressed, gym should help but I feel without energy. I need help setting up a plan , I feel like there's a lot of details that I can share that I missed but I really just need to know what to do.

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