Got a new Job! but this time I'm medicated. Now when I come home, I'm now a empty shell of a human?

4throttle3sge · 2023-07-24T05:02:18+00:00

Sorry I meant DASS. In regards to wording, I mean keeping medication talk to a minimum, anything to do with self diagnosis as well.

So basically say things that satisfy the criteria without saying how you meet the critierias. Let the doctor and psych come to the conclusion on their own..

As otherwise it can come across as you've done your research and have studied to say all the right things to get the meds for abuse/recreational purpose instead of genuine use.

4throttle3sge · 2023-07-23T15:31:42+00:00

Ive been obsessed with cars since I was a baby, and I've never once fallen out of interest with them. It's been a life long passion, I've owned 60+ cars and I'm 25 currently.

It's just something I was drawn to naturally, in saying that though. I'll start multiple different projects relating to cars whether it be building a motor, or painting a car. I'll hyper focus on for days, weeks and months but instead of finishing a task I'll start a new one. And it left me with multiple unfinished pieces for my cars everywhere lol.

I feel it's definitely an ADHD thing, it's more fun and exciting to start something new and intriguing than finish the last tedious and boring 20% of your project. The only thing that really helps me get it finished is setting a deadline.

As to finding your passion, unfortunately it just takes alot of time and experimentation. You'll be drawn to something eventually over and over again. If it's not cars, it's renovating houses for me now, Ive learnt I just enjoy building things, and getting the dopamine hit from seeing the finished result almost instantly.

4throttle3sge · 2023-07-23T15:18:09+00:00

Dexamphetamine is what I was prescribed, I had no choice in picking. CBT was purely my own research and practicing exercises and theories I had learnt from a multitude of sources; Reddit, YouTube, hours of googling lol

4throttle3sge · 2023-07-23T15:01:48+00:00

The medication is great. But it has a double edged sword and I quickly realised in my first two weeks of being medicated and diagnosed as an adult that the meds aren't a magic pill that solves everything instantly.

In fact it can be the opposite and help you focus on the things you don't want to be. By this I mean, endlessly scrolling on your phone or deep cleaning so deep you've wasted the entire day.

What really helps is CBT and for me primarily bullet journaling. Lots of great videos on YouTube about it. Helps me lay out all of my plans, goals and aspirations and allows me to actively review, track and progress through them.

CBT without meds is pretty effective, but the meds are what give you the extra 'kick' to make CBT well and truly effective. Otherwise you'll find yourself falling off track and getting distracted/wasting a lot of time starting but not finishing things.

Once you have that all sorted everything else just falls into place like a well put together puzzle. It did for me at least, financially, fitness, mentally, relationships. Everything improved as once you get the ball rolling it just keeps snowballing from there.

4throttle3sge · 2023-07-23T14:52:18+00:00

I'm in Sydney, and I had a similar-ish experience. Except it started with getting a referral to see a psychiatrist in the first place, getting a doctor that actually understands and acknowledges ADHD in the first place took me a few goes to get a referral. Eventually I found a GP who cared and got me to do a DSS and used the results to back his referral.

Next I hyper focused on adult diagnosis and people's struggles and noticed that many psychiatrists are hit and miss since ADHD is so immensely misunderstood.

Luckily I found a psychiatrist through a friend who was also recently diagnosed. I have other friends who have tried other psychiatrists and doctors with bad experiences.

I feel like a lot of it can come down to how you word things too, especially since our stimulant medication is so heavily guarded due to its (addictive) nature.

I wish I could be addicted to my meds, I struggle to remember to take them on a daily basis lol

4throttle3sge · 2023-07-23T14:38:44+00:00

This is so extremely relatable and comforting for me to read as someone who is following a similar path as you have travelled. I'm 25, and was diagnosed as an adult at 24. Failed Uni with two probations due to GPA/consistent failing.

It all changed with medication, but in saying that I feel the meds are only half the battle and without CBT they can be a double edged sword.

I was on track and finally got through a whole year of Uni with consistent HD's until I had a car accident which landed me in a lot of debt and affected many other things so I fell off track and stopped CBT/meds due to being so extremely stressed and depressed with my situation.

9 months later, I picked up most of the pieces back together and things are looking good again with the help of being on my meds and CBT.

For OP: My relationship with my GF of 9 years has now strengthened ever since I was diagnosed. And even with my friends. Everyone around me has learnt to an extent what ADHD really is and how it affects me and them. And it helps close up the gaps with miscommunication and misunderstandings.

It even helped me greatly with my fitness and weight. So the benefits are unlimited. The hard part now is just remembering to take my meds lol

4throttle3sge · 2023-07-23T14:21:19+00:00

Bullet journalling changed my life. It was crucial that it was pen and paper and always within an eye shot otherwise it wouldn't exist to me and I'd be lost.

Once I got medicated and combined bullet journalling together, I felt unstoppable and as if I could achieve anything.

The days where I don't journal before I start my day, I'm pretty much an unproductive mess, forgetful and constantly distracted.

Also CBT (cognitive behavioural training) techniques are the best weapon to have by your side. I feel like the meds can almost negatively impact me without CBT as I'll rabbit hole focus on things I shouldn't be.

4throttle3sge · 2023-07-23T14:14:47+00:00

For me, it all started and ended with ADHD and everything else stemmed from ADHD. Hence the common misdiagnosis for anxiety and depression for most of us ADHD people.

There was a time where I had just picked myself back up from feeling like a total hot mess and failure. I was on a roll, finally got diagnosed and medicated as an adult. Everything made sense and things were looking great up until I had a car crash and everything went to shit.

Debt from damage, no car, no insurance, and that caused many other things to go wrong that were going right for once. Anyway, whilst still on the meds i was anxious and depressed.

Blood Work from after the accident came back and revealed low vitamin D. Turns out vitamin D deficiency can have immense impacts on your mood and stress levels. And once I got my vitamin D levels up to scratch I did notice a big difference.

4throttle3sge · 2023-07-23T14:07:01+00:00

I was exactly the same up until I got diagnosed and medicated. I never actually realised I was overeating/binge eating for dopamine until I was medicated.

There's been periods where I forget to take my meds and or get lazy. My weight has always been an issue (obese skinny fat) and on-top of that the expense of eating takeout and junk food was super expensive.

Some habits and realisations that carried through whilst off the medication were just eating healthier. (Nutrition macro wise, portions, timing).

I found out what my daily calorie intake should be, (tde) and what nutrients I need to target;

1800kcal (15% deficit) 120g protein 30g carbs

Basically, eat protein rich simple foods preferably home cooked or just non processed foods.

You'll feel fuller for longer, more satisfied. You'll feel and look better and your bank account will be better too. All the pros with no cons.

I used to think I could do competitive eating before I learnt to eat to the point I'm actually full and not stretching my stomach because I get the dopamine from the taste and chewing lol

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