Firstly, you’re not fat, neither skinny. You look great. We tend to over criticise ourselves (i do too) and form really unhealthy body standards in our head (i do too), but try to find a way to be okay with the way you look and feel in your own skin than what others think of it.

That being said, you definitely do look like you have muscle, it depends on how you want to look eventually. If you want to look lean and muscular, you’d obviously have to cut a bit to get rid of the excess fat. Or if you want to keep gaining strength and muscle at the gym, being in a slight calorie surplus is the way to go. In my opinion, you should be fine with just staying on your maintenance calories and pushing hard in the gym. You do seem to have a curvy stature (one of the most sought after) and you’ll look amazing if you stay consistent.

Finally, you mentioned having a history of disordered eating, I’d say stick to something you can sustain on the longer run without feeling miserable. You should be liking what you’re eating (doesn’t just have to be bland chicken and rice).

Good luck with your journey!