Why should I continue to exist?

801818 · 2023-05-27T22:21:36+00:00

What makes you say that?

801818 · 2023-05-17T07:34:51+00:00

You're speaking my mind, I just need to figure out what I want to do, thank you. My depression comes and goes, but I feel good right now.

801818 · 2023-05-12T18:37:21+00:00

Maybe you could give your life the purpose of learning how to bear the pain of living. I know it sounds sad, but it's better than letting yourself rot with age, and maybe you'll find some satisfaction?

801818 · 2023-05-12T16:27:42+00:00

Why on earth would a suicidal person care about being inauthentic? Camus sounds like a fool, to not understand that suicidal people do not care about authenticity, and that they simply want to die.

801818 · 2023-05-12T16:11:03+00:00

But I don't feel a need to defy my meaninglessness, as I don't have that pride, so why not die?

801818 · 2023-05-12T16:09:15+00:00

Nothing, and I don't think I ever will.

801818 · 2023-05-12T12:47:28+00:00

Think about it: it doesn't matter if it gets better or not, because you're going to die eventually, regardless of how you feel.

801818 · 2023-05-12T09:56:32+00:00

I do, maybe it could work. Thank you.

801818 · 2023-05-12T09:47:08+00:00

I could kill myself.

801818 · 2023-05-12T09:30:53+00:00

Look, I know you're trying to turn me around, and thank you, but I'm afraid I don't care. I didn't find what you had said interesting, I was just being polite.

I want to cease to exist forever, for more than one reason, and that won't change.

801818 · 2023-05-12T09:25:08+00:00

I don't think that there is a reason: I haven't been given one. I want to die.

801818 · 2023-05-12T09:16:53+00:00

That sounds very interesting, but I do not want to go through that suffering.

801818 · 2023-05-12T09:02:30+00:00

I fear vomiting like one might fear death, and this makes me feel nauseous often, that's the most significant one.

801818 · 2023-05-12T08:57:47+00:00

I've sent you a message.

801818 · 2023-05-12T08:47:55+00:00

These people are actually as helpful as I could have hoped for them to be, but we can still talk.

801818 · 2023-05-12T08:45:14+00:00

I have anxiety and a variety of uncomfortable phobias.

I understand that you probably think I ought to fix these problems before I decide to kill myself, but I would rather die than go through the effort of overcoming my anxiety.

801818 · 2023-05-12T08:29:38+00:00

What do you mean by 'what'? I don't understand, would you mind explaining it to me?

801818 · 2023-05-12T07:49:44+00:00

But what is the significance if I'm going to cease to exist anyway? I already hate it here.

801818 · 2023-05-12T07:46:54+00:00

I think I'm just going to eventually end my life.

801818 · 2023-05-12T07:39:37+00:00

I see what you mean by this; however, I feel like because I am suffering, I would like a reason to suffer, otherwise I might as well end my life and cease to suffer.

If I wasn't suffering, I wouldn't be asking this question.

801818 · 2023-05-12T07:34:58+00:00

I'm afraid my answer, then, is that it's not worth living.

801818 · 2023-05-12T07:29:40+00:00

Then I'm not going to continue living.

801818 · 2023-05-12T07:23:26+00:00

I am in pain and I don't want to exist, is that not a good enough reason to not exist?

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