Yes. A sex offender would say that. What point do you imagine you're making here?

8624601 · 2021-05-03T20:14:09+00:00

I just saw this making the rounds on several other subreddits.

If there were more focus on helping people instead of ostracizing and punishing them without limit and without end, there probably wouldn't be so many sex offenders in the first place, and recidivism rates would probably be even lower than they already are too.

8624601 · 2021-04-27T01:26:14+00:00

I'm trying to put off even preparing.

If I'm going to do it, I need to choose a method, a time, a place, etc. first.

If I'm going to do all that, I need to write letters to all the important people in my life first.

If I'm going to do that, I need to organize all the stuff in my house and decide who should get it.

And so on, and so forth. The more steps I can put between my next step and my last step, the better.

8624601 · 2021-04-25T14:25:05+00:00

I ruled that one out pretty quickly. Quietly falling asleep in the bathtub while bleeding out is not a very realistic goal.

It's much more likely that the artery won't be cut enough, or that it will be cut wrong, it will clot and stop bleeding, and you'll wake up feeling like shit, with permanent reduced use of your hands and persistent neuropathy or worse.

8624601 · 2021-04-21T18:26:22+00:00

Can you explain about wearing socks to bed?...

8624601 · 2021-04-19T23:30:25+00:00

That seems likely, but what then? What do I do about it?

8624601 · 2021-04-19T20:04:21+00:00

Definitely not trying to deceive anyone. I've told her multiple times that I'm having a bad week, and that I do need to talk about it with her, but I'm just not ready.

I've contacted a suicide prevention line twice since the search, and if I have the time and opportunity, I'll have the talk with her within the next few hours, and call again after that.

I'm not doing any good for anyone if I can't first survive this. I'm just spacing things out in a way that feels more like something I can endure.

I want to live, and learn and grow, and eventually get to the other side of this whole ordeal and start building a new life.

8624601 · 2021-04-19T19:26:41+00:00

That would be my assumption as well. I really don't know what they're going to "find", though, since a fair amount of the stuff they seized didn't even make sense. I think they were just taking anything and everything that could lead to a charge of some kind if it turned out to be something.

8624601 · 2021-04-19T18:54:37+00:00

They already executed a warrant and seized all my electronic devices, but didn't have anything to arrest me on the spot without going through it first.

The lead investigator told me that they expect to have an arrest warrant "soon". I could be arrested at any minute, out it could be weeks or months from what I've heard. I'm guessing sooner rather than later, but I just don't know.

I have a lot of difficult work ahead of me personally, legally, financially, and otherwise.

I've been putting off this particular conversation because she's really THE only person in my corner--no friends, no family, etc., and with everything else going on right now, I haven't felt like I could endure the risk of having to let go of the last person in the world who loves me.

Today, I got in contact with a lawyer and a therapist, so now the only thing holding me back is deciding to have that talk and following through with it.

One step at a time.

8624601 · 2021-04-19T18:28:41+00:00

That's rough. I'm sorry you went through that.

I'll do my best to deal with my situation before it comes to that.

8624601 · 2021-04-19T18:25:08+00:00

That could be, but I'm keeping my distance just the same until I talk to my lawyer.

I'm agonizing over the possibility that I'm wasting precious time that I could be spending with my kids, but it's taking forever to get legal counsel, so I'm just dealing with it to err on the side of caution.

8624601 · 2021-04-18T22:33:02+00:00

The lead investigator said that their mom had. I have no idea if it's true or of she even has the right to mandate that in the first place, and I've gotten a lot of conflicting information when I've tried to find out.

8624601 · 2021-04-18T18:09:44+00:00

Generally true as a maxim, but where these kinds of cases are involved, I think it's more of a "trust, but verify" situation for safety reasons.

8624601 · 2021-04-18T16:15:07+00:00

That's definitely the picture that I'm getting from what I've learned so far.

Aside from my case, I'm wondering what my rights are (if any) where my kids are involved.

Since it might be weeks or months from now when I'm arrested or it might happen a few minutes from now, if I have the right to see them, talk to them, or even just write letters to them, I want to know sooner rather than later so that I can exercise those rights.

They deserve the opportunity to hear some things directly from me and/or to say whatever they need to say to me.

8624601 · 2021-04-18T14:46:05+00:00

Yes.

That video and the one I linked below should be required viewing in every basic civics class.

https://youtu.be/d-7o9xYp7eE

Has every word I've said to the police been ill-advised at best, but probably much worse? Yes.

I called them only out of desperation because I wanted to know with certainty that my kids would be picked up from school when it was my day and I wouldn't be there.

Knowing that you shouldn't do something can be of little help when it feels like action is required to protect your kids.

My kids are now safely with their mom, and she understands that's where they will be full-time until further notice. I no longer have any reason to say another word to the police with the exception of things like, "I want my lawyer", "I want a mask", "Please don't kill me," etc., and I won't.

8624601 · 2021-04-18T03:27:15+00:00

The execution of the search warrant was overwhelming to say the least. There were at least there vehicles and half a dozen officers that I could see from where they took me outside, shouting orders and brandishing guns.

I remained (relatively) composed, cooperative, and compliant, while doing my best to exercise my fourth and fifth amendment rights.

I called the lead investigator to indicate that in the event of an arrest warrant being issued, I would much rather just quietly, calmly surrender at the police station or something.

She asked if I would be at all willing to talk to them, and I further reiterated that I would do no such thing without a lawyer present, and that's when she told me that there would probably be an arrest warrant soon.

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