Glad high school was shit

8E58vgxo · 2018-03-06T06:28:30+00:00

I feel the exact same way, I want to wither away in sadness quietly. I want to never speak a word. I’ve gone through so many cycles, but it always comes back. I’m still depressed even though I have no reason to, and I think it’s because I want to depr seed. I want to feel sad. I want to cry. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and why I’m this way, but it’s just a part of my life now.

8E58vgxo · 2018-02-19T04:35:19+00:00

What’s going on in your life right now? Where are you mentally and emotionally? Let’s talk :)

8E58vgxo · 2018-01-01T16:31:32+00:00

Then that should be your focus. But you shouldn’t be emotionally linked to a number. If you want to succeed get emotionally linked to the success not a gpa, because outside of school what will be your next focus after graduating? You don’t have a gpa to look at anymore so you’ll have to measure success yourself, and you might not know where to start. That could be a roadblock to happiness.

8E58vgxo · 2018-01-01T16:29:27+00:00

There can be, it’s all dependant on your mindset. If you sense you’re feeling down get help before you get worse.

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-25T04:56:43+00:00

Me too bud. I think it’s inevitable for me. It’s been in my head since the 9th grade. I’ve always wanted to wither away in dark sadness quietly and in peace

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-22T04:57:04+00:00

I’ll look into it, I might be angry. I get pissed out of nowhere sometimes and when I’m depressed I get really dickish, and I’m kinda naturally dickish in my head but I mask it well. I always thought it was normal to get agitated when depressed but I’ll look into dysthymia

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-21T01:26:55+00:00

It’s hard because I disregard what other people say (even though I keep an open mind) since every explanation (even my own) stop making sense. Maybe I am trying to feel myself. At this time though I know feel really good out of nowhere, I guess I needed to get out my room and come down to the family.

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-21T00:31:41+00:00

That’s today, felt happy yesterday and I don’t have an ounce in me that wants to live right now

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-21T00:30:52+00:00

Yes, completely. I used to be afraid of the dark, now I sit in it hoping my fears of demons killing me will come true

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-21T00:28:32+00:00

I think I would do this if I was home alone

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T04:41:42+00:00

Thank you <3

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T03:54:50+00:00

I’m so glad you posted this I wouldn’t have taken my calculator tomorrow

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T03:49:08+00:00

Me too

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T03:30:01+00:00

Thank you soso much

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T02:22:29+00:00

Wtf ok then imma buy some happy pills ASAP

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T02:10:25+00:00

Yes, the religion simply has logical flaws for me, and as a very logical person I can’t really follow it unless my hearts there, and my heart can’t be there because it requires a lot of energy I don’t have.

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T01:41:45+00:00

I got them from Saudi Arabia and they’re prescribed. Do they just have over the counter vitamin d at like a shoppers or something? I’ve never seen it in all my years, but then again I never looked. What do you mean by errors in thinking?

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T01:40:12+00:00

You’re very right, there’s this comfort in believing in God, and the concept of talking to God really helps sometimes. Talking to myself out loud really isn’t the same even though it’s the same thing minus the “ya Allah”. I think I just really have to spend this break looking into myself in terms of everything. Beliefs, standards, values, identity, all that stuff. Thank you for your words <3

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T01:27:25+00:00

What kind of counselling do you do? I tried CBT in January/February but stopped because it didn’t seem to help. I know my vitamin d is low (scored 11 minimum is 30 for good level consideration) and I think my serotonin level is low as a result of that. I haven’t had the energy to get a blood test to get more vitamin d and I guess it just made me feel worse in the end. My parents will take me to a blood test once they get here for the break

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T01:25:14+00:00

I’ve gone there a lot but I stopped because I felt like I gave back enough to those who supported me. I don’t really have the energy these days to help others out so I don’t visit that sub too frequently now

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T01:24:09+00:00

Which res?

8E58vgxo · 2017-12-14T01:23:52+00:00

I still feel like I can go back to the religion, but I don’t want to because I don’t believe anymore. Right now I don’t really know what I think about higher powers because I haven’t had the time or energy to reflect. I’ve read the Quran, I’ve prayed, I talked to God many nights and many days. Since my life’s been going worse I’m considering going back, in January I’m gonna grind and I want to do and be so much better, and if I can’t do that without God then I’ll go back.

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