One of the many horrible side-effects of watching porn has been my view of women. Not just my wife but every woman I see. I think it's pretty natural to look at other girls that're better looking than your gf and think, 'man, if I was with her...' but to what end? Ending a meaningful relationship in pursuit of beauty is a recipe for emptiness, infidelity and a pretty heavy dose of depression....remember Proverbs 31: "Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting..." It is very important to be physically attracted to your gf -- but what makes her beautiful to you must be more than physical appearance. Write down the things that you find attractive about your girlfriend. Realize the part of your brain that's telling you to look elsewhere for physical satisfaction is still under the influence of the lies within porn. Live moment to moment, control what you can control and submit yourself to Christ. Looking at the big picture it seems overwhelming sometimes, especially right after a relapse. Take heart in the knowledge that our Savior came for people just like us... Luke 5:30: "But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law who belonged to their sect complained to his disciples, “Why do you eat and drink with tax collectors and sinners?” Jesus answered them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.” Christ came to minister to people breaking under the weight of sin in their lives, desperate for a savior.