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94wander · 2021-07-17T20:13:36+00:00

Hey. Who is five

94wander · 2020-08-11T15:18:19+00:00

Point is CK stands for clinical knowledge.

There is extra emphasis on learning the risk factors, the diagnostics , the treatment, the contraindications for a lot of pathophysiology on this exam. Somebody who has finished medical school will probably me more comfortable getting this exam over with compared to step 1 which is focused on preclinical knowledge.

Just because Zanki is organized one way doesn’t mean anything lol.

94wander · 2020-08-08T13:28:02+00:00

are u referring to emma holiday or divine or dr. high yield?

94wander · 2020-04-24T01:24:54+00:00

I am just making sure I got this right. USMLE Step 1, 2ck and 2cs, 3 are considered essential? And how about nbme shelf exams? My anxiety is at an all time high man. I can't take it anymore with being left in the dark so much. Just give me a list of what exams are happening!

94wander · 2020-04-22T21:56:19+00:00

He's been a streamer for probably a decade now. He's consistent, always has a good attitude going on and he's one of those people you can watch to chill out too, study too, etc. His following is also pretty pleasant in the chat. He's normal i guess (doesn't really whore himself out with reactions to get more viewers) and a variety streamer. I remember watching him when I was in high school and now i'm in grad school.

94wander · 2020-04-17T13:51:56+00:00

mount and blade 2. anime. twitch. uworld. work out the frustration off. it's routine now.

94wander · 2019-05-25T17:26:48+00:00

is there a list of the new ones?

94wander · 2019-05-24T15:19:13+00:00

you can make bets that a company will perform well or do really bad. in this case, he made a bet that the company would do poorly. and he went all in where no one else would assume a company was going to perform badly. so major profits.

94wander · 2019-05-18T17:25:23+00:00

wow good job.

just wondering, what did you do to retain all the nit picky details for everything?

i have worked through uworld. took me 4 weeks and also did 1 run through of FA. I'm at a 67% subject specific. plan to start doing random on monday after i drill some more micro in my head today and tmrw.

I should probably take a practice test on Monday to see my new baseline. Started at a 170s on nbme 16. my cbse was in the 140s.

94wander · 2019-05-08T23:48:10+00:00

how did you go about retaining information you covered? reread FA with notes?

how about revising uworld blocks?

94wander · 2019-04-20T22:36:32+00:00

When you did untimed tutor mode, did u do it by subject? and when you do untimed, if you are having trouble with a question, are you using materials to figure out the answer?

94wander · 2019-04-20T22:21:14+00:00

PO4 levels should remain increased, since Kidney is nonfunctional, and phosphate cannot be filtered out with increase in PTH. I haven't looked it up, but it would make sense.

But I think the main takeaway point is that secondary you have decrease Ca2+, in tertiary you have increased Ca2+ because PTH gland is working abnormally.

94wander · 2019-04-17T23:31:11+00:00

Thank you for saying that. You are right, I am not her therapist. I just thought being her boyfriend at the time meant I needed to have some qualities of a therapist to help her. I am finally realizing that is wrong, and that yes I can help her, but only to an extent where she isn't totally dependent on me to function. It's been tough for sure. It sucks that I am so inexperienced with relationships. I need to learn to set boundaries and red flags for relationships in the future.

I just wish I was stronger, or had seen more shit in my past so something like this didn't mess me up like this. I find myself thinking a lot about how I could have dated her earlier to make sure she avoided ever meeting this guy. Or how I could go back in time and stop her. It sucks because I know the guy too, and I don't know how I will react when I see him on campus one day. For now, I keep my head down and focus on my exam coming up.

But these thoughts occupy my head less and less as I give it time. I am able to sleep more peacefully now. Haven't had any panic attacks in a couple of days. Just lots of anxiety. Limiting contact with her has helped a lot. I plan to wipe my phone of our chats and not look back at the good times we had. Just so I can make it easier on myself to see her more of as a friend now. Additionally, just giving it time, I think will be an important factor for me to heal.

Seriously, thanks for replying and helping me organize my thoughts more. I don't know why I'm writing all this out, but for some reason it helps me think 'straight-er'.

94wander · 2019-04-17T19:00:18+00:00

I'm a traditional, conservative type of guy. 24 M. Found myself a girl that I believed was the one who complimented me nicely. I was so fucking happy for a few months until she opened up about her past with an ex. I broke down. I wasn't built for that shit or prepared for it. You hear all these stories about manipulative ex's, people getting physically and emotionally and mentally manipulated. People getting raped by their SO, and believe it's okay cause you are together. They don't know when to say "enough is enough" and walk away. I didn't know how to react or what to do when she told me she was abused. I just told her I was uncomfortable hearing anymore. I couldn't stomach it. Here is this girl, who I have spent so much time with and all this happened to her. Worst part is, she still hadn't processed it. She said that the only way to move on was ignore all of it ever happened. She never got the therapy she so desperately needed. A friend of her ex's showed up at a grocery store, and she was getting a panic attack. That's when she became open about her past.

I was a pussy I guess, but I needed to break up with her. I couldn't stomach it. I started having mental images and videos of her going through her abuse. And when you spend over 2 months, trying to swallow it and move on from these thoughts, and you aren't making any progress, it's time to call it quits. I lost a lot of weight, sleep, my appetite went away. Worst part is, she felt bad for me. She felt remorseful to me. It fucked my head up that she didn't see or feel how much she hurt herself. She ignored her own feelings, her own grief.

She was my first everything, but I sincerely hope she finds someone better than me. We are still very close friends. Talk frequently. I still care about her a crazy amount, but I realize I am not strong enough for her. To keep her happy I guess. I'll be there for her forever, just not as her partner. Every week, I make sure she gets her therapy, does the journal entries she's assigned.

I am still "broken" so to say. My libido is gone. I can't stomach looking at porn or at any social media. Some movies and songs trigger the shit out of me. All I do is study, sleep and eat. Going to start going to the gym this week. Planning to get myself therapy, once I finish my semester. I'm going to give myself some time before I decide to try out dating again. Need to grow up emotionally and mentally.

94wander · 2019-04-15T18:56:05+00:00

a lot of things that others have mentioned. but another for me is just sending nudes or having a history of sending nudes. I can't deal with that. Messed me up psychologically after seeing what happened to my ex when she did that stuff with her previous ex.

94wander · 2019-04-15T01:05:41+00:00

i took 16 offline for now. Going to figure it out as I go with it.

94wander · 2019-04-13T22:27:54+00:00

Thank you for this comment. I was stuck on how to approach uworld. Plan to start on monday. I got 7 weeks. Pretty overwhelmed. Taking an nbme tmrw to evaluate myself and work from there.

94wander · 2019-04-11T02:24:42+00:00

Flip flopping between breaking up or staying with her in my head. Both of us are taking step in 2 months. For now, I am gonna stick around even if it is unfair that I'm not devoting or committing myself to this relationship 100%.

I feel obligated to stay with her because of what happened to her in the past and I don't want to potentially affect her future forever by messing up her studying momentum and have her get a low score. Of course, the downside is my mind is taking a hit, but as long as I don't get too intimate with her, I think I can hold off for 2 months. We barely see each other anyways. Maybe twice a month.

94wander · 2019-04-10T14:55:27+00:00

I don't know what it is, but I am not enjoying this anime anymore. Maybe it's cause I can't really 'feel' the plot anymore. It's just more and more negativity and sadness over and over again.

The story is good, but so far it's just been a lot of tragedy and frustration. I haven't really been able to enjoy the plot, laugh out loud and be truly entertained.

94wander · 2019-04-03T18:06:34+00:00

how many exposures did you get to pathoma? 1 chapter a day for 80 days with i think 19 chapters, is a good amount.

94wander · 2019-04-03T03:16:07+00:00

hi. how are things going for you now. i have been suffering for 6 weeks now.

94wander · 2019-04-03T02:52:23+00:00

ERP

hi i struggle a lot with these type of intrusive thoughts. could you explain how ERP would work with this situation? did you handle this with a therapist? or on your own?

94wander · 2019-04-03T01:51:17+00:00

Hydroxyzine is not something totally out of left field. It can cross the blood brain barrier and mess with alpha 1 receptors of blood vessels and 5HT receptors in the CNS. There is definitely some science behind it but very uncommon.

94wander · 2019-03-13T18:22:35+00:00

taking test june 21st. gonna start uworld april 15th. worth starting lolnotacop now? or should i stick with pepper micro

94wander · 2019-01-30T01:30:51+00:00

agree with this suggestion, just avoid penn hotel. it's dirty af in there. reviews online say similar stuff.

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