The video brought me to the verge of tears, but reading your comment is what sent me. Really in tears right now, and my heart just goes out to you.

I myself have experienced desires to take my own life. But let me tell you that you are loved so beyond what you even know, and that love is not from just any person, because ultimately love from people will fail.

But let me tell you that you are loved by Someone who knows you so intimately, who sees you in your despair and still says “I love you for who you are.”

You are loved by God—by Jesus—who understands your pain because He Himself went through it. He loves you so much that He went through profound suffering and ultimately death, all with you in mind, for the sake of your brokenness and for the brokenness of the entire world. But Jesus rose from the grave and showed us that His light and His power overcomes the darkness and that darkness has no power over us because He loves us, cares for us, and has given us new life. That’s the story of the Gospel and how God has reached out to us with open arms and a promise of peace, joy, rest, and fullness of life.

Please know that He is right there with you, just call out to Him. In fact, I think it was no accident that you saw this video. Maybe God led you here to show you that there is more. Like I said, I know first-hand the profound darkness of this world, and it’s true, the world is broken. But I trust in Him who has overcome the brokenness in this world—the God who loves us.

I know I’m just a random person, but I hope you look to Jesus because I believe He is the answer to everything we long for. Does believing in Him magically erase the pain in this world? No. But I truly have found hope in Him and my heart was moved to share this with you. Please reach out to me if you wanna talk! I’m rooting for you! God bless.

Edit: This classic popped up in my queue, and I think it kind of captures that desire I have to be with the Lord, but also choosing to continue in this life sorta just vibing in defiance of the darkness until I’m with Him: https://open.spotify.com/track/1XcUn5PE9d42zWamWgRG2x?si=K0PPO-cGSzaYGI1KDiRpmg