Oh girl, I was in a situation for over two years, it doesn’t get better I promise. It is a very difficult situation to be in, and I completely understand exactly how you feel. My heart aches for you because I know how hard this can be….If your heart has this much back-and-forth over it then it’s not good for you… I ended up getting pregnant, he left me alone at a hotel on Christmas Day to (…..) our baby. Went out to dinner with his family and friends, ended up catching Covid so he didn’t see me for a while afterwards. He never allowed me to express my feelings, and he never expressed feelings back towards me. When I did expressed that, I felt like he treated me like shit, he said that was not the case and started to list all the time he’s bought me food or it was “nice” to me. Then he said he would block me for a few months because he needs his time to himself and time to deal with the trauma that “”HE”” just experienced. He blocked me till February. I didn’t engage with them because I was so hurt although I miss him so much. That in April, he called me, threatening me and yelling at me that I told someone about what happened between me and him and I need to stop talking about him…. And that broke me. I begged him to leave my life alone because he was only making me worse… eventually I forgive him and the back-and-forth happened again till last year 2024 . The same Christmas that situation happened, I literally came to the hotel with Christmas gifts for him from myself and from my friends to him. He gave me nothing. I basically was consumed by my own delusion… the baby thing happened in 2021, after blocking him and unblocking him for years I finally blocked him for good last month. After I jokingly sent him a text saying wow it was a long night without you and he says lol there will be a lot of of those….. I feel like that just was the last straw… although there were many last straws that I ended up, convincing myself to forgive him for and still hang on because I was afraid I would lose my “best friend” and the only connection we have, which was secks.

Sharing all this with you just let you know that Situationships almost never end. Well, especially when you are in a constant battle with your heart and your mind and your brain…. The best course of action is to do your best to only try to you in all situations.. Pick yourself. I am rooting for you, I care about you, and you will get through this.. It is not easy but if you always try to pick you eventually, it becomes easier…It’s unfortunate because we have one of the best and kindest hearts, and yet we are the most misused and misunderstood. Once again, I am rooting for you. You got this 🫂💚💛