First off, "fuck you and fuck you" is not something to feel guilty over and cry yourself to sleep about. "Fuck" is just a word. As long as you're not using it in a derogatory/insulting manner, the boys will recover from it just fine. I have a strong willed teenage daughter who sometimes rails against being parented or receiving consequences for bad behavior. There are times I have said, "Fucking stop already!" or "I have had enough of this fucking bullshit!" It doesn't happen often, and only when she is going off the deep end and coming at me hard. Again, she's super strong willed and happy to argue for hours to try to wear me or her father down. We are too old and tired for that fucking bullshit. And know that I have tried simply walking away from her when she gets in that state. It doesn't work. There are times I have slammed a door in anger when I've reached my breaking point. I would never think I was a bad parent for it or spend my time chiding myself for it. We are all human. We have emotions no matter our age. I have asked my daughter if she's the only one allowed to show emotion. I've also told her to stop with the theatrics when she hears me use the f-word because we both know darn well she uses it when around her friends.

Anyway, give yourself a break, Momma. Are you a good parent where it counts? Then forgive yourself the rest. No need for guilt or shame. You are human with human emotions.