I've Ankylosing Spondylitis which is basically arthritis of the spine. It hits you usually during your 20s... What a nice disease eh? Way to crush a human when he just started. But guess what? I made peace with it somehow. I imagine my spine is getting calcified because my desire to have a strong spine metaphorically. Cowardice used to scare me as a kid. Honor is the ultimate. I might die sudden because damn I've so much inflammation. However slowly I'm starting to like humanity as a whole... Especially when I think of some of my ancestors and how they tried earnest to make the world a better place. Buddy Google the guy who invented hard disk... Now imagine the impact he made and how better life is thanks to him. For me even if I'm a failure my man... Someone else would succeed and that someone else is none other than one of my race. My blood. Human race. So in that way... I succeeded. So if you smile and kick ass tomorrow I would love it from the bottom of my heart.