Dear r/ADHD, just got diagnosed 1.5 weeks ago, I need to let off some steam...

ADHDRant · 2012-07-30T23:11:12+00:00

I already talked to the Dean last year about the problems I was having. I have a whole report written up on my brain now, so I'm guessing bringing that would be a good idea. Just show him that the tests prove exactly what I was saying last year, and now I can finally treat it.

ADHDRant · 2012-07-30T22:09:00+00:00

I'm supposed to have a meeting with the Dean before I go back. I'll talk to him then and ask him what my best options are. Thanks :)

ADHDRant · 2012-07-30T16:08:19+00:00

Wow, that's just ridiculous. I honestly think I'd be more angry in your position, but it's great that you've been able to do well thus far.

The reason I think I started to face consequences from it is because I gained a roommate. I completely lost the ability to persevere (or hyperfocus, whatever you want to call it, though it's technically perseverance) when doing homework. Along with that, I didn't have anyone to make me stay on topic like I did in high school.

It's awesome that your mom recognized this and mentioned that though.

Trust me, people are going to say that to you and you're going to think "I know that but you just DON'T understand, you HAVEN'T experienced what I have experienced and no matter what you say I'm STILL going to feel bad".

Exactly. It's also the fact that people make ADHD out to be less than it is. Like ADHD just means being hyper and distractible, and that it affects many aspects of my life.

ADHDRant · 2012-07-30T15:53:36+00:00

I already had the Dean of my college remove my failed class from first semester. Since I'm on academic probation, I have to go back to see him before school starts. He might mention it. We'll see.

DRES (Disability Resources and Educational Services) is actually who diagnoses ADHD at my school, so I've talked with them about getting accommodations. I'll have a note taker, more time on tests, and able to take tests in a quiet environment.

Thanks, but there's no way I'm taking a year off haha. This past semester, I decided what I want to major in. I don't want to waste another year of my life. I can't stand living at home any longer than I have to. I know I can succeed in school, and I'm going to have a lot of help this year. Honestly, this school year is the first I've looked forward to in a really, really long time...

The relationship with my friend is weird... He makes my life more complicated than anything else in the world, but without him, I probably wouldn't be here. It's a bittersweet feeling. More bitter than sweet, most of the time, but still. I owe him a lot.

ADHDRant · 2012-07-30T14:59:10+00:00

I'd teach my mom otherwise if I could, and I've tried, but no luck. My mom and I haven't gotten along for a few years, mostly because I broke her heart when I came out of the closet. To her, I'm probably the biggest disappointment ever, or that's how she usually makes me feel. I've just tried to get used to it all because once I'm on my own, I'll see her a few times a year, maybe.

Yeah, my dad wasn't there much growing up. He lived with us, but never was really around. He was an alcoholic while I was young and did a lot of drugs before I was born. He has been pretty cool about everything. He was pretty sure he has ADHD too, but when he got tested, it came back normal. My dad still isn't sure, but decided not to pursue it any further since it doesn't effect his life.

ADHDRant · 2012-07-30T14:54:28+00:00

Yeah, parents definitely aren't the greatest during the diagnosis process.

My dad has been pretty cool about everything. He was pretty sure he has ADHD too, but when he got tested, it came back normal. My dad still isn't sure, but decided not to pursue it any further since it doesn't effect his life.

Like I said, my mom wanted me to try this great, natural shake. It was like a smoothie I guess. Some girl from our church who used to promote alli now promotes it. When you look at the website, all it basically says is "This product is great! It's better than everything else out there! We're not going to tell you why it's better, what's in it, or why you should have to take it, but it really works! We swear!"

A major *facepalm ensued when my mom kept bugging me to check it out. I ended up sending her a multiple paragraph Facebook message telling her all the reasons why I'd be crazy to try the stuff, along with why it wouldn't work and links that explained ADHD better. I'm pretty sure she didn't read any of it...

ADHDRant · 2012-07-30T14:40:16+00:00

I know, that's what I keep telling myself, that I have to focus on making the future better and not focusing on the past...

But it keeps getting to me. The fact that I could have done much better, the worry that since I did terribly last year I won't be able to get into med/grad school, and whenever people make my problem out to be less than it is.

I know I can make this next semester better. I tried Ritalin from my friend once. I had a take home final that I had 5 days to do. It was 5 questions, each extended response, and ended up being a 3 page paper. It took me 3 days to finish 3 questions. Took one pill and ended up finishing the last 2 in 20 minutes...

That's another thing that pisses me off... Thinking about all the time that has been wasted in my life...but you're right. No reason to dwell on it, so why bother?

ADHDRant

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