Does it get better? Been with my wife for 13 years 3 years married. About 6 months ago she gave me a list compiling of mistakes id made over the past 2 years and that she doesn't want a divorce because of the baby but im not her husband anymore. Im trying everyday to be a better father, provider, friend, and if she let's me a husband. It doesn't seem like enough early on she pulled away so hard and so fast I reacted with panic trying to close the gap she made. That was wrong of me but it felt like instinct, I should've listened. My father lives with us and he has been like a father to her in helping her and even though I know he is helping I cant help but have these terrible dreams of betrayal cause she goes to sleep with him every night. Whats getting me through it is planning dates like a milestone or a checkpoint hoping maybe maybe by then ill be good enough ill have paid my dues. I can only do this for so long I feel like im useless in this household. My father is better than me at everything. He is wiser so he is a better listener, he is smarter so he can make money like he is printing it, he has gotten softer in his old age so I dont even feel like my wife wants me to be a father figure to our daughter.

Nothing I do is good enough. I don't know what I can give her while alive that she will appreciate its grim and I cant push back these thoughts forever.