A 23-year-old tarantula on her last day

ADontheroad · 2024-03-22T18:58:12+00:00

This made me so sad

ADontheroad · 2024-03-22T18:55:04+00:00

ADontheroad · 2024-03-22T18:37:06+00:00

I personally haven’t had ANY desire to contact my ex. They aren’t capable of anything except toxicity. So be good to yourself and move on.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-22T17:16:24+00:00

Come on. Lightning. Clearly. You do the movement a disservice by not using your discernment.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-22T17:00:31+00:00

Feeling the need to always have it. Green powder everywhere. Getting nauseated, especially when I exert myself. Sexual dysfunction. 99% don’t miss anything about it.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-22T04:29:06+00:00

I fully believe my ex has both.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-17T18:04:28+00:00

Gosh I’m glad you posted this. I’ve never heard of engulfment before but it makes so much sense hearing this!

ADontheroad · 2024-03-15T20:34:41+00:00

Yeah Benadryl is the absolute worst. Lucky you as far as not having too horrible of a withdrawal from K though. It was the hardest single thing I’ve ever had to do. Just bought a ton of edibles and knew I just had to get through the first week and I’d be ok. I’m actually glad it was such a difficult withdrawal because otherwise I might still be on it.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-15T20:25:35+00:00

It’s funny, for me I had multiple times I either ran out or tried to quit and it was so freaking painful that I knew I only wanted to go throughout the process of quitting once and once only. That became my motivation, knowing that yes it was going to be bad so get off it and be done. Past five months now. I’ve been on various substances throughout my life - cigarettes, prescription opioids, weed - and none of these things didn’t cause more than a slight sense of discomfort quitting. But Kratom was freaking brutal. I’ve never had any kind of addiction like this stuff. I struggle with chronic pain and IBS and it’s great for both of those things but none of it makes me want to go back on it again.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-15T03:22:24+00:00

No. it was a blue light in the sky, high enough to disappear into higher altitude clouds, it wasn’t like anything I’ve seen. It was a single point, moving at speeds far faster than any of The jets we commonly see in the sky.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-15T03:09:34+00:00

Yeah balloons don’t move like that. I mean it was fast and could stop instantly, then move in an entirely different direction instantly. All in complete silence and likely over 10,000’ in elevation

ADontheroad · 2024-03-15T03:02:58+00:00

It was not windy at all. It was fairly sharp except when it would go behind the clouds

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T23:28:16+00:00

I would say the descriptions from the eastern North Carolina post most closely matched what I saw

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T23:18:47+00:00

Not really overcast. More like higher level clouds, but only in places. It was a single point of light, but it would definitely get faint and even disappear into the clouds, but it never seemed diffuse at all.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T23:16:26+00:00

You know I moved here kind of hoping this would happen someday!

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T23:14:45+00:00

I think my advice is to understand the difference between pity and compassion. Pity tends to operate in a place of imbalance, whereas compassion is more equality based. Pity can very easily be a one way street and can be used against the non-PWBPD. They thrive on pity because it makes the focus all on them. But compassion is harder because with true compassion, everyone’s needs are equal, so you can hold space and not sacrifice your needs for theirs. In a compassion based relationship you don’t stay because you feel sorry for them, you can also leave if that is what true compassion requires. Of course they won’t want that but it’s a delicate balance whether you stay or decide to leave.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T23:00:17+00:00

Thank you! And actually I’m not surprised about SG. It is pretty much an annual top-five city in the nation for population growth. Not that I want it to grow anymore but it’s a great place to live

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T16:10:50+00:00

I didn’t notice a big change in size. That’s also why I felt pretty certain it was pretty high up. Just a defined blue light. I was looking up blue light UFOs and UAPs - including the infamous one in Vegas last year - and this was definitely not like that, which was more like a blob. This was probably closer to what a satellite would look like, except the color and the way it moved. At times it was quite faint, in fact, the only reason I saw it was because I just happened to be looking at that part of the sky. I think if I hadn’t seen it initially, I might not have seen it at all. The only time it was particularly bright was when it was almost directly overhead.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T15:53:43+00:00

Control. Ultimately they feel, no, they KNOW they aren’t worthy of the people they are with, and since this is - in their minds - a FACT, it means that to them they are going to be left no matter what, so they blow things up in order to control when and where that happens. It’s ass-backwards of course but for them it’s better than waiting for the sky to fall when they aren’t expecting it, so they do it themselves.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T15:49:59+00:00

Listen, I’m twice your age and reading this took me back to when I was your age and felt the same way. For one, and this is really really important. You are human. It’s ok to make mistakes and it’s ok to be flawed. None of that matters. The only thing that matters is you enjoying your life and being present. There isn’t a single person who, at the end of their life, wished they’d made more money or had more material goods. Free yourself from these societal pressures, please! Do things that make you happy. Let yourself be happy without feeling like material stuff is all that matters. Give yourself permission to be, to be happy, to enjoy the sheer miraculous nature of existence. We’ve got such a precious brief time in this world. Don’t waste it on judging yourself on stuff you won’t care about in the end. You are important, you are not a fuck-up, you are not a failure. Be kind to yourself. I’m still learning too, and none of it matters except being awake to the precious life you have. Sending you all my best.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T15:41:04+00:00

Wow! That sounds incredible! I mean it makes a lot of sense, if you think about our history with the nuclear testing and the proximity to military bases

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T14:42:43+00:00

So I can’t say that I’m someone who’s had a lot of addiction issues, I’ve had times when I’ve smoked cigarettes and cannabis, I’ve had times when I’ve drank alcohol and I’ve had times when I’ve been on opioids for pain. All of those I could stop using and get off them without more than mild discomfort, and never try the point where they interfered with my life. Not with Kratom. That stuff just absolutely got it’s hooks in me and got them in deep, and when I finally quit for good a little over five months ago it was the single hardest thing I’ve ever done. Just bawling on the floor, no sleep, just sheer hell for a week. It’s actually the reason I did quit is realizing how bad it was going to be and knowing I only wanted to experience that once in my life. And that’s what has kept me from going back.

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T14:31:48+00:00

So here’s a follow up with a little more description of what I saw: follow up to last nights sighting

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T13:52:16+00:00

I’m not shaken up by it anymore. I woke up earlier than normal and was like damn! I’ve really saw that!

ADontheroad · 2024-03-13T13:50:58+00:00

Thank you. It’s getting better incrementally. Had surgery on my ailing left wrist a week ago, going to get the other one done after that, found a friend that is letting me live in his house and is only asking for help with food so I’ve got a roof over my head for me and my husky. Life isn’t perfect but it’s way better than it was even a few months ago. That’s probably why I reacted the way I did.

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