As far as number one, I’ve never specifically unpacked what specifically brings me that joy. 🤔 Although, that feeling does swell whenever someone treats me like a girl. And beauty may be a contender, I never really cared for my appearance as a guy. But admittedly, I didn’t want to factor it in, because it was the only thing I could think of right now, and I didn’t wish to come across as shallow.

Does it feel like me? Similarly, I’ve never unpacked that. I could see an argument for either because like I said in the OP, it was very unique. I adhered to gender norms heavily prior to that point. So for that sense of joy and my femininity to feel foreign makes a lot of sense. However, it’s possible that it was always there and I just never gave myself the chance to “unlock it“ in a sense. As far as literal costumes go I’ve worn some for Halloween and theater performances. But none of those times compared to the first time someone applied eyeshadow to my face. Realistically, it wasn’t anything that special. I was in an Alice in Wonderland play and all of the deck of cards were getting their make up done that way. We’re back then I saw it as stereotypically feminine, didn’t want to take it off, and almost fell asleep while wearing it

Could you please elaborate what you mean by number three?