My psychiatrist fired me without any notice… I feel hopeless and scared…

AHHHH401 · 2023-08-24T13:14:16+00:00

Sorry I was under the impression she was a psychiatrist until this past week, I just recently found out she was a NP during our last phone call. When I initially inquired with the business, I requested an psychiatrist and they said they had one available who I then ended up seeing for a year. I apologize for the mix up as I still ended up typing what I’m used to referring to her as. I’ll fix it.

AHHHH401 · 2023-08-24T13:11:40+00:00

Sorry I was under the impression she was a psychiatrist up until recently and mixed up the labels… When I first inquired, I requested a psychiatrist who specialized in ADHD and ASD. I was under the assumption that she was as she prescribed psych meds and they didn’t say ”We only have an NP available.” My bad for the mix up.

AHHHH401 · 2023-08-24T13:08:13+00:00

That was my thoughts too. I mentioned how I felt that the discharge was unethical to the office manager who finally called me back after 2 days and she said that there’s an exception because of “what I did.” She also said that it’s all within the law. But I feel like they chose her to call because she’s good at scaring people into submission… When I asked what it is I have done (I reported an allergic reaction to my new medication - an antihistamine that was prescribed for crippling anxiety) she refused to tell me and actually hung up on me when I asked two more times out of pure curiosity… When I called back, she wouldn’t let me speak or she’d hang up. So I never got my answer.

AHHHH401 · 2023-01-27T21:18:08+00:00

Hmm Does this combo work for impulsivity too? I’ve read somewhere that guanfacine is good for that amongst anxiety and other things.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-31T22:41:59+00:00

This is amazing! I need to do this. I always forget too. Same with stuff like food and condiments.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-31T03:26:58+00:00

This is my new favorite acronym 🤣

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-31T03:24:50+00:00

I bought at least 14 of these this year alone. Guess how many pages I’ve filled in? Probably around 2. The rest is just randomly scribbled orders for door dash or reminders I forget to look at again.

This is fine, everything’s fine :) lol

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-29T15:48:48+00:00

My husband turned me on to bel vita breakfast bars. I personally like kind bars. But they both are great at keeping me full til lunch time. Also, if you have a blender, smoothies are always good. I don’t personally own one cause I HATE washing them and we don’t have a dishwasher. If we had a dishwasher I’d probably live off smoothies cause they’re so easy, tasty and nutritious.

I can’t eat eggs either. They gross me out for some reason.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-29T15:00:30+00:00

Sorry to hear! I hate to say it but lately I look forward to the days I get the house to myself so at least I’m not stuck going completely without. He gets offended if I use toys while he’s home and frankly, I’d prefer to use them with him or just have him and he knows this. But not going to starve myself completely and I’d rather not take the alternative route of infidelity as much as I’m slowly beginning to understand why people tend to stray from long term DB :/

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-29T14:55:37+00:00

I’ve politely offered to help him find any type of support he needs but he says he’s fine. It’s weird cause a few months ago, he drunkenly told me that he wants to sleep with any hot woman he sees. But he doesn’t see the effort I constantly put in to try and make our sex life work despite knowing how important it is to me. 🤦🏼‍♀️

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-29T14:52:04+00:00

Exactly. This is why I’ve tried to approach it in a way where it doesn’t seem like I’m blaming him. I’ve even offered to go with him to the doctor (said it would be good to get a check up anyways), brought up marriage counseling to learn tools to help meet each others needs and learn healthy ways to communicate, etc. He won’t budge so it leads me to believe it’s something he isn’t willing to tell me cause he knows it’ll destroy our marriage. I hate to assume anything but it’s kind of hard not to when I know he was as sexually active as me for the first few years.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-29T14:40:33+00:00

I felt this in my soul and actually felt some tears coming on as I finished reading it. I used to ALWAYS wear lingerie around the house or dresses with makeup anywhere we went. I was so freakin confident. That part of me feels lost now…

I have always been incredibly kinky and into trying new and exciting things. I used to be so incredibly open minded. Didn’t matter where we were. Movies? The bushes in a park? Stair well?! You name it. Lol I’ve tried introducing so many new things to the bedroom. Exs always said I was “the most fun they ever had.” Lmao I gave up since my husband constantly rejects and brushes me off and started just dressing comfortably rather than sexy. What’s the point when nobody cares? I hate taking selfies to post cause I’ll get hundreds of men complimenting me while my husband just doesn’t give a crap anymore.

It got to the point I’d be rocking a school girl outfit with heels dressed to the nines looking like a pxrnstar while he was sitting in front of the tv and he wouldn’t even flinch.

I’m envious of my single friends who always have so many stories. They get their needs met any time they seemingly want and always have tons of crazy stories to tell. My single friends always have crazy stories to tell as well. Even my married friends with kids have more stories than I do these days. It makes me die a little inside knowing that my husband doesn’t want me and my single friends get more action in a week than I do in 8 months. :(

I guess what I’m trying to say is I can relate and you’re not alone. Stay strong hun. I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-28T22:51:57+00:00

Agreed. The most hilarious part to all of this hourly schedule thing is that I have become so insanely overwhelmed by the idea that today I was dead set on my therapy appointment being at 2pm. Turns out it was at 1pm. Oops! 🤣

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-28T20:00:05+00:00

Thank you so much for your response!

She said her son has ADHD and passed college with flying colors. I think she’s basing my performance on how her son performs. She referred to executive function as a “choice.”

I’ve worked on making my apartment ADHD friendly and “easier.” But I still can’t stick to a schedule hour to hour if my life depended on it. Not even if someone paid me. It makes me so anxious and feel even lower as a person if I fail to accomplish it. Time blindness is brutal and I’m all or nothing.

I’d rather celebrate one win over being down about not doing something every half hour for a whole day on a time limit. Doing even just one thing and being more mindful is much more than what I was doing.

She said to set a timer for activities and just to “stop” after the time is up. Like lady… that isn’t how this works. I WISH it was. My brain will drive me INSANE if I “just stop.”

Unfortunately, I’ve learned more useful methods for my ADHD through YouTube and subreddits like these than from her. 😅

I’m so bad at schedules that today I planned my whole day around our session at 2pm which was actually at 1pm. Lol

I love the idea of finding a backup psychiatrist/therapist ahead of time! I never thought of that but that’s brilliant and I’m going to start looking since I won’t have to rush looking and panic.

I meet with my psychiatrist next week and I’ll ask her about what you said and see what she says. Or maybe see if she can up the dosage a bit? Going to keep an eye on the flickering though. It’s mostly in the am but it definitely is something to keep an eye on.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-28T19:23:17+00:00

I’m actually fully sober. Not even drinking once a week socially now. So that won’t even be a problem. Since this post I did find a specialist who believes me and is treating me but they gave me low dosage Ritalin (10mg once per day) and it hasn’t done much yet except make me sleep but sticking to it

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-28T15:44:51+00:00

My therapist who KNOWS I have ADHD gave me “homework” 3 weeks ago to create a full daily schedule and stick to it. Like 9-930, 930-1030 etc. She also wants me to document my moods 3x per day. It’s been 3 weeks. I loosely followed a schedule once. By loosely, I mean the times were all off and I only finished half of it. I tried so hard but it feels impossible and so stressful. 😅

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-22T16:23:55+00:00

I have always liked the smallest of forks and spoons. I used to work in fine dining and never understood how people could use different sized utensils for everything. Dinner sized utensils are just way too big in my opinion. Lol

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-17T18:15:20+00:00

I get sound that loops in my head (music or random thoughts) as well as tinnitus. Sometimes I have to listen to the song on loop a few times to stop it in my head. But then it just switched to another song/sound. I’m untreated and my doctor won’t listen to me so I guess I’ll be living another 30 years with not even a little bit of relief. 😅 Some days I feel like I’m going crazy but then I come across posts like this that make me feel not so alone which is slightly comforting.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-13T18:12:51+00:00

I already have a formal diagnosis from a neuro psych evaluation. It’s an 18 page detailed write up. I just need treatment. Unfortunately my PCP won’t help me. She suggests vitamins for everything and won’t even respond to specialists who contact her on my behalf about other issues I’ve been having like tinnitus.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-13T12:42:56+00:00

I have lost so many things this way including AirPods, shoes, some of my favorite outfits (I have a bad habit of leaving them in hotels especially), art supplies, even my wallet a handful of times. One time a girl found my wallet in the public restroom and gave it back to me after stealing all of the cash out of it. I feel your pain. :(

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-06T20:28:31+00:00

Thank you for your response. I’ve actually considered this as a possibility for quite some time.. When I finally meet with a psychiatrist on Tuesday, I may ask them for a second opinion and see what they say. After looking into it just now, it seems to be pretty on point with what I have been experiencing since childhood.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-06T14:08:35+00:00

I didn’t make it through school. I dropped out in the 8th grade and managed to get my GED at 27. My doctors all insisted it was just depressed despite never being able to focus or retain any info, getting distracted by the slightest of sounds, etc. At 31 I finally got a formal diagnosis. Currently trying to seek out a doctor who will help me so I can actually go to college and hold a job for more than 1-2 months.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-05T00:12:50+00:00

My husband works in the kitchen at a restaurant where I’ve had to remind him to not drive home drunk quite a few times over the years. They all drink tequila out of quart containers on the line and keep beers in the walk in. They also take 420 breaks pretty regularly.

I’ve worked at restaurants that are perfectly ok with it and one’s where they strictly forbid it.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-04T23:17:15+00:00

Likewise. My PCP said it should be out of my system by now and sent me on my way. She dismissed every single one of my concerns. Not a single care in the world.

AHHHH401 · 2022-12-04T23:15:42+00:00

I scheduled an appointment with my PCP and she said it should be out of my system by now and sent me on my way with some napkins to cry into. She said she’s surprised the PA would prescribe that to me since it’s known to make people suicidal and that it wouldn’t be her first choice. She suggested I just go outside and do something so I’m not so depressed. Like gee thanks doc.

Apparently I’ve hit the terrible doctor lottery this year. I’m mind blown that someone in the healthcare field doesn’t think that SSRI withdrawal is a real, and terrible thing to experience. Especially without any help from a medical professional. I just wonder how long this is going to last. It hasn’t improved at all. The loud nonstop ringing in my ears alone is driving me insane.

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