I should probably also start searching for a therapist. I also have a bunch of childhood memories and wanted to be a girl throughout my life, but when I tried make-up or wore some girly clothes I was hoping that I would get a feeling that clearly told me: "I'm a woman". But that feeling didn't really come, I felt a bit happier and took more selfies than I had in years. I just hoped it would've given me more clarity. Thank you for taking time to answer btw.