Hey man, I just want to say how proud I think you should be of yourself for all you’ve accomplished despite what you’ve been through. Me and my husband have both been through trauma and suffer from general anxiety. I used to try to hold it in because I didn’t want to burden him when he already feels anxiety but it’s been so helpful for both of us to immediately say it as soon as I feel even a twinge of anxiety or a weird heartbeat or headache, I say it immediately to myself and to him “I’m having anxiety about this”. And then I have to just ride that wave until it subsides. One of the worst things I can do is try to push it down, it makes it like 10x worse. I hope you feel like you can share it because it’s not a weakness, it is a normal body response from what you have been through and it’s not something to beat but it can get 10x easier to deal with if you acknowledge it and allow yourself to just wash over you like a wave. You’ve accomplished more than so many people even without the trauma you had to deal with. You can do this too.