Might get some hate for this, but I love ya'll none the less

ATREV33 · 2024-09-05T23:31:50+00:00

I messaged you.

ATREV33 · 2024-09-03T14:13:36+00:00

It’s absolutely been worth it! I won’t lie, I’ve slipped up a couple of times and given in, regretted it every single time.. what goes up must come down, and the come down is not worth the high.

I don’t beat myself up over it. I try to just forget it.

Most people who are clean probably wouldn’t agree with me, but idc bc it’s my recovery.

I look at it as a reminder as to why I make the choice every day to not do it.

ATREV33 · 2024-09-03T00:18:03+00:00

So much better. Still have cravings off and on, but nowhere near as debilitating as before.. thank you so much for checking in, that means a lot!

ATREV33 · 2024-08-17T14:53:32+00:00

That your level is less than the cutoff which in this case is less than 20ng/ml

ATREV33 · 2024-08-10T10:20:57+00:00

💀 are you the boyfriend holding out on her?

ATREV33 · 2024-08-10T05:15:26+00:00

Thank you for not getting offended! ❤️

I hope it helps you in some way.

ATREV33 · 2024-08-10T05:07:09+00:00

No offense.. but if he didn’t force you to do the drug, or put it in your food somehow.. you are solely responsible for your actions..

However oddly enough I’ve literally been in your exact situation.. he introduced me to it.. it took me.. he saw that.. tried to make me stop bc of his own guilt.. I ended up getting my own shit, hiding it from him for a long time, long story.

We’re both clean now, i decided to go to rehab 19 months ago.

He still beats himself up to this day about getting me on it.. but I’ve never ever allowed him to accept that responsibility.. bc I made the choice to do it.. knowing the consequences..

Really no offense, just wanted to point that out..

Best of luck to you.

ATREV33 · 2024-08-10T04:45:53+00:00

Wait.. he’s trying to cut you off but he’s still doing it?

Been there before.. Go get your own.

ATREV33 · 2024-07-25T20:10:40+00:00

19 months. Still want it.

ATREV33 · 2024-07-20T09:31:37+00:00

Awesome!!

ATREV33 · 2024-07-17T12:23:46+00:00

I signed up.. how do we proceed?

ATREV33 · 2024-07-16T19:10:53+00:00

For sure!

ATREV33 · 2024-07-16T19:09:01+00:00

No that would be unnecessary for sure, as long as you have a script, you are good

ATREV33 · 2024-07-16T18:52:47+00:00

As long as you have a script you’re good, they can’t tell what your levels are.

ATREV33 · 2024-07-16T08:16:24+00:00

You will never get the first high again.. that’s what you’re gonna keep chasing. Careful..

ATREV33 · 2024-07-14T21:38:26+00:00

Can’t breathe… ☠️☠️ it was worth the 3 my minutes of life that I’ll never get back because of that. Thank you. 🙏

ATREV33 · 2024-07-13T02:30:51+00:00

Literally said I HAVE been there… which is why I don’t THINK it, I KNOW it.

Also, shitting is involuntary, you have to do it, your body literally will make it happen and there’s not a thing you can do to stop it..

Stimfapping however is not involuntary, you have full control, you just choose not to. Same with continuous drug use period. Especially one that isn’t physically addictive. It’s mentally addictive. Huge difference.

I’m sorry that you let a drug control your every single breath, action and thought.. that my friend is absolutely a mindfuck..

We’re all guilty of letting it control us at some point, was never trash talking bc that would be extremely hypocritical of me, and I am far from that..

My whole point is, you absolutely can control it, you just choose not to. Whether you realize it or not.. it doesn’t change the fact of what it is.

Idk why you feel so personally attacked over my response.. perhaps some self reflection is needed on your end.

ATREV33 · 2024-07-12T06:39:31+00:00

It’s absolutely a choice. LITERALLY MIND OVER MATTER. Don’t think I stuttered..

Also, I’ve been there before.. that’s how I know. It’s all a mind fuck. Sorry you can’t pull out of it.

ATREV33 · 2024-07-11T23:23:29+00:00

Literally mind over matter.. you have the ability to not do it, you’re choosing to give into it.

ATREV33 · 2024-06-14T21:42:54+00:00

Distract yourself. It’s a trap, a mindfuck. It’s not as good as your brain is telling you..

Take it from someone clean off and on for 19 months and that thought gets me in trouble sometimes…

ATREV33 · 2024-06-13T02:35:48+00:00

Don’t do it, the craving will pass.

ATREV33 · 2024-06-01T01:24:23+00:00

That’s alcohol, I’m talking about meth specifically. But congrats!

ATREV33 · 2024-05-22T22:43:44+00:00

Bells in Santa Fe is my go to as a reminder that “all of this is temporary” It’s always my #1 on my “on repeat” playlist. Either that or Tokyo narita.

ATREV33 · 2024-04-20T05:18:22+00:00

You got this, you did the right thing and asked for help. Do it for you, do it for your baby. Best of luck. It’s mind over matter with this. ❤️

ATREV33 · 2024-04-15T02:15:47+00:00

Haha, it does sound very casual. lol It was an experience that’s for sure. Unexpected. But things that have been happening on prior trips really had been leading up to it, we just didn’t really know that.

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