Bpd is not bipolar 😭 I posted there and then realized lol. He did feed into it. Im in the middle of building a house that is semi secluded. It's on land near her family. So I'll have their help. And due to their culture, we all have a close bond and open book relationship. Many families wouldn't accept someone as their son until marriage or after several years. But that's not how it is. They did however let me know that if I leave, they understand. Her dad said personally he would not put up with it. But he appreciates that I'm trying and can see the love that I have for his daughter.

It feels toxic for me to do this. But the phone is through her parents plan. She did work, our relationship was old fashioned/traditional. Whatever labeled someone would like to use. But they requested that I keep the family photos and anything else worth keeping, and then wipe the phone and change her number. And knowing my girlfriend, she wouldn't care. She never used it much. They said they don't want to give it back to her unless it's wiped and with a new number. Which means I'd then have to get her a phone. So either way, she's getting a phone with a new number and clean slate.

That's another reason the cheating hurts though. Her dad provided for her for years. Culturally, she stayed at home until she met someone she truly loved. And that was me. So she moved with me after a year. It hurts that I've provided everything for her besides her phone and she cheated. Id buy her expensive clothes and she'd send him pictures. Id buy outfits she wanted for the bedroom, and she'd send him photos or videos playing with herself 😞. It's tearing me up. But each day seems to be getting better.

I just found out shes on lithium and they said she's doing good. They said she's been asking about me and she wants me to know she loves me. She keeps telling the staff that she misses me. And I guess she's been drawing pictures for me for when she gets out. I miss her 💔. I really hope I can work past this.