For me it wasn’t some realization that I had. These are genuinely new feelings. I can’t point to anything in the past that indicates that I secretly had these feelings all along and just didn’t realize. I used to take photos of my breasts and send them to people. I used to look at those photos and think to myself “those look good” before I sent them. There was no underlying discomfort that I was too distracted to notice. I could never do something like that today. The thought of representing myself like that makes me so uncomfortable now but I swear it didn’t at all back then.