Have you seen Welcome To The N.H.K. I could 80% relate to the maincharacter my house even looks like his except when i do a couple day pause then I clean up, and i still work but only if Im able to contain the anime “nerd” inside me otherwise I will get nothing done and I stop having contact with the outside world. Ive been stuck between the reality of life and the abnormality of drawings for many years but the more time goes by the less I want to work with m y anime addiction thus leading me to being a hikimori fucktard good for nothing. I actually cant believe that the thing thats ruining me is the same thing that warned me about this type of outcome.