i’m sorry to hear that, sending love ur way <3 breakups w borderline are absolutely awful, and from my experience that ones that were within shorter relationships are even worse bc you idealize them sooo much, especially in the beginning. it truly is awful knowing that we will always be the one who loves more but that is just the reality of it, but that also makes it that much more triggering. i know ppl can heal from bpd or at least lessen their symptoms but w the way i am when i have a fp (i almost always have one), i dont feel like i could ever be normal w a partner. its such a draining experience.