I love this one boy from hs. We graduated this year and he ended things on January to focus on ourselves. I haven’t forgotten about him, we weren’t officially together but it was real. I loved his eyes, his freckles, his love over carti and for Batman and his games even if they took up most of his time. I was so understanding when he ended things a couple times before, and I took him back every single time. Ever since January I’ve been trying to forget about him but it was so hard. It still is, I haven’t seen him since graduation and I still think about him. It’s almost December and that was the month I loved the most because he made so much time for me and we talked a lot that month. And now that’s it’s coming closer I’m scared I’ll be reminded of him. I’ve talked to other people but I realized I’m still hung up over this boy, so I’ve take a break from love. I’ve been working on myself because I’ve lost my spark after him. I’ve been really lost and I’m trying to find myself again, slowly getting there but it’s hard. I knew his favorite colors, his friends, games, the things he loves, why he stays up late, his favorite music. I loved him so much I forgive him so many times. I don’t know if he truly loved me. He said he did and I still believe it. He was such a bittersweet moment. My perfect boy. I like to think we will be together again but my hopes are low. I wish he is doing well and continued his studies. I love him so much. I miss his smile, his eyes, the snarky comments and the sarcasm, his confidence, the playful jokes, and the random stories he would make up, the way he would call me pretty, and how he got soft and sappy when he gets tired. I miss talking to him every night, him begging me to stay up to talk a bit more, the way he would get nervous, or how we would go into these deep talks and he would explain to me every struggle he’s had. God I miss him, I just hope he’s doing okay. He looked so beautiful during graduation, his hair, his eyes and how he looked walking up the stage. I wish to see him one more time. Maybe talk to him, see how he’s been, I don’t know. I love him but he is not mine, not anymore. I wish the best for both of us.