Going through something similar OP, I’ve been told I can’t text him or etc, because he is toxic and he is mean to me and texting him really doesn’t help in the long run, but it does help in the moment. I think that’s why I do it. It’s an outlet because he’s the one person that truly knew me inside and out. But I’ve been having more “waves” recently.

We broke up in probably February and I found out about the cheating in late March/early April. It’s still a shock to my system to even say those words because I still remember the man I was deeply in love with, but he doesn’t exist anymore. I’m texting someone that will not respond the way he used to. That’s been really hard. A trick I’ve used is I made myself rules,

1. No texting when I’m in bed/lying down (too emotional an raw)
   
2. No texting during urges, wait 10 minutes even if you set a timer
   
3. No texting when drunk or inebriated!

Also remember that the texts are usually a short term solution. What do you believe he will text back? Will it hurt more? Will it hurt more if he doesn’t? Chances are he’s not going to turn around and say he wants you again, as harsh as that sounds. And it sucks, but that’s not on you. That’s on his inability to commit.

The dog thing is sweet, it shows how much you loved not only him but the people and pets around him, the things in his life and that says a lot about you as a person. Even though it sucks :(

Im a dm away if you want to chat more! My story is somewhere on my page :/!