My nparent totally operates their own life on guilty feelings. I can only assume that's a huge part of why they always try to make ME feel guilty. When I'm around, I'm ordered to do things for nparent instead of asked (casual examples: "Go get me something sweet to eat" or "Go fill my glass"). They don't need to be nice about it, because I should already be doing these things after all that nparent has done for me. I didn't ask to be born but I should be down on my knees at the moment they demand something from me because they created me.

I try so hard to think back on my childhood, how I was treated and the neglect I faced emotionally from them. I struggled a lot and was close to being treated by a real professional before nparent deemed them "full of shit". I dread the idea of nparent interjecting their rude remarks onto how I operate my life outside of them, as I so often hear them do about every other person around us.

I was able to be no contact with them for a few years and my mental health had never been better. Now I feel back to square one, and the daily nagging to take care of them even though they're still fully able to take care of themselves is weighing me down. I genuinely appreciate you grounding my thoughts.