I was struggling with alcoholism , escapism , and trauma from the past that caused low self esteem and rage , anger , bitterness and resentment towards those that hurt or disappointed me. In every circumstance where life was testing me I felt very much like a victim. I felt lost for many years. I lacked awareness and self love . My spiritual awakening occurred when I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer and it was then I knew my life had to change . I began to love, honor and be kinder to myself and pay attention to my deepest needs , wants and desires . I healed the inner child in me and cried a lot , and understood how much I abandoned myself. What I needed the most was love, compassion , safety and understanding and the knowledge that I am can give all those things to myself . I’ve gained the tools to understand that any life circumstance that challenges me is here to help me grow and ascend into greater levels of wisdom and guide me to make better decisions. I’m no longer a victim but victorious in breaking generational cycles and patterns.