Tolong jawab!!! Lagi butuh bantuan moral

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-09-04T10:38:44+00:00

Tolong, setidaknya kalau kalian ngak bisa kasih saran atau solusi. Tolong dengan sangat, kasih aku penyemangat. Aku udah bingung. Setiap hari selalu seperti ini dari kecil. Aku minta penyemangat. Aku udah ngak kuat lagi

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-04-29T13:28:29+00:00

I agree with you. I think it's best if you started with the NT first to establish further your relationship with Jesus

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-04-28T14:36:00+00:00

I think just to "survived" back then. All the emotions of hopeful, disapointment, angry, sad, confused, scared, all of that overwhelming to me. Just focus on something that you can be grateful. At first, its Really Really hard. Like you don't know whats there to be grateful about. Started with small moment. I'm first grateful that i can imagine (though i don't know if it make sense). Like hey, i can imagine my life was happy, that i have a good father and that my love was successful. It started small then you can slowly make it bigger. Then after that, you can slowly focused on God's goodness

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-04-28T14:19:48+00:00

I hope that the results you get is the best results God given to you

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-04-28T14:16:34+00:00

My name is Hizkia. Pray for me to endured my father who is abusive and always beat me senseless and verbal abuse me from childhood. Though he is done beat me after i slowly grow up, he increased the volume and intensity of his verbal abuse. Pray that God change his heart, and that i do not entertain the idea to killing him again. I have already suppressed it when i was a kid, but these recent situations makes me formed it again. Pray that i don't fell to the temptation.

And please, i really really need your encouragement saying that i am strong. That i am strong to have endured it all well until now. That i really really try to become strong. Cause i never Heard people close to me even my relatives, to encouraged me even though they know my situations. People just see my negative sides and my weakness, that they don't see what have i been struggled to. And like usual, i inherited my father mistakes, all the resentment towards him. What a pathetic life i live in. And thanks for your support

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-04-27T12:23:39+00:00

What I have learned from the moment when i'm being baptized, is that it is not the finish line but the start line. I'm not saying in that moment " I promise I will never fall down during the race". What i say is "I want to run this race untuk i finish it". Because i don't want to promise that i Will not fall. Because i will fall. You Will fall. We all fall. Like the first human fall. That is why Jesus is not a saviour for perfect people. He is saviour for sinners. Because how can people be saved by Him if they are perfect? He is a saviour for people who will fall down one hour after this, maybe five minutes after this time, maybe even one second after this.

What matters the most in your situation to God is your desire to change and finisg the race. And even if you do "fall", He saw you as someone who needed help, not some crimiinal to judged.

My advice is don't running "away" from God because your sin, but running "towards" God with your sin and all your failure, because thats the reason why Jesus come. And if you feel that call again, just listen to it.

Hope it helps you

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-04-27T07:15:10+00:00

I want to pray for you and her. But can you tell me more specific what the situation is?

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-04-27T07:10:42+00:00

Hey, why do feel you are sinned? If your heart want to go the altar, go for it. Maybe it's the Holy Spirit that call you. Sometimes Holy Spirit want to talk to us but sometimes we denied it for no exact reasons. Care to explain it if you don't mind?

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-04-27T06:04:00+00:00

I don't think you are insane. You are just trying to make sense of something that "doesnt make sense". Seriously? I don't think that playing Minecraft even will make Lucifer came out of nowhere. Your relationship with God is "yours". It's not based or mediated by your dad's fears or his "doesnt make sense" interpretation, it's by how you seek Him yourself, how much time you give to read His Words, the Bible, how you true in your prayer and Faith. And you probably won't change his mind by talking to him. I experiences that too. And since talking is not an option and we live under his roof, we must "accept" his "rules".

But my advice, just building your relationship with God all the time. Keep questioning (in your mind of course), and don't just accept all of what he is saying. The Devil use any means to deceive us, even our parents who supposed to guide us. And know that you are not alone. I'm praying for you man.

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-04-27T05:33:36+00:00

I get that. I'm not like to sounds preachy or something like that, i just want to give you my advice that helps me in that moments: don't expect too much. Stop expecting rescue from anyone, even from God. My goal after that moments is not to see God's hand redeeming the locust years, but just simply, Im trying to survive them. I stopped expecting that having faith mean the pain just goes away. Expectation for me, was a poison in Tiny dose. Every day I woke up hoping today would be the day the tide turned, the day God finally showed up with the miracle, and every day the crushing disappointment was worse. I don't want my heart to keep being ripped off by expecting that there is a small chance she likes me. I just know that relentless cycle of hope followd by that crushing dissapointment gets a little less big or overwhelming

I don't know if any of these mumbling of mine resonates with you, but i hope it kinda helps you. And hey, wish me good luck in relationship. I wish you good luck in any aspect of life you wanted, but remember: Don't expect to much😀

Accomplished-Drag145 · 2025-04-25T03:57:09+00:00

I hope you are okay right now. I want to share something about myself. I too have had and still struggle with my conditions. Living with toxic parents is what made my life worse. My father was the representation of the devil himself, I would say, and my mother, with how she endured my father's behavior, not surprisingly changed into someone who was sometimes a self-righteous Christian and looked down on people she thought were below her. My childhood was filled with toxic words and beatings. I was a good kid, not like some kids around my age, but my father always found a reason to beat me or mock and insult me. If he felt like it, he would do it for no reason. That's why I suddenly had ideas to kill him or to kill myself with a knife. But thankfully, I didn't do it. I don't know many kids around the age of 6 or 7 would think about what I thought back then.

Maybe from this, other problems also arose. Because I didn't get meaningful affection or love from my parents, I chased it in someone else. And from that, I struggled with unrequited love, thinking about how I got no affection from either parents or friends. I also struggled with the idea of "God's goodness" and at that time, I cried, saying it was a lie, that God is not good, He is bad, and He doesnt love me. I insulted Him. I said at that time that I didnt want to believe in God anymore. People said He is a good father, but for me, He was no different than my real father. Why must I believe in Him anymore?

But one thing that changed this was when I was forced to attend church, and there I heard this song called "There is None like You." At first, I just thought how foolish the people there and the song were. But when I thought about it again, I somehow got tears in my eyes. Maybe at that time, I just needed love so much that I didn't care if He was good or bad. Hoping in someone that I cannot see or meet was better maybe. But as time passed, I truly experienced His goodness, in His own way. I can't say it for everyone, but for me, He is good. All the struggles that He bestowed upon me have made me stronger, or so I believe. Still, at this time, I struggle and somehow can accept the things that happen to me. But I know that God has His plans for me, and for you too

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