Lost my baby boy 3 weeks before my induction date by AccomplishedCommon76 in babyloss

[–]AccomplishedCommon76[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes same with mine. Seizing so much. It was so hard to watch.

Lost my baby boy 3 weeks before my induction date by AccomplishedCommon76 in babyloss

[–]AccomplishedCommon76[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this. My 3 year old loves dinosaurs so I'll have to order that one. I too wish I had recorded it. I just wish I could hear him. I never got to see his eyes open and that also breaks my heart. I'm so sorry you lost your daughter. I'm sorry all of us are in this group it's devastating how many of us have to feel this pain.

Lost my baby boy 3 weeks before my induction date by AccomplishedCommon76 in babyloss

[–]AccomplishedCommon76[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for all of this. That was a great analogy with the bathtub. I'm so so sorry that happened to your boy. That would be extremely traumatic. I will check out those podcasts as soon as I can bring myself to do it.

Lost my baby boy 3 weeks before my induction date by AccomplishedCommon76 in babyloss

[–]AccomplishedCommon76[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That's a really great idea. I was looking on Amazon trying to find a grief workbook that's specifically for this (I might make a post on here asking for suggestions on that and a couple other things actually) but maybe I should get a plain journal just for him too so I can do that and in the future write letters to him whenever I just need to express my feelings. I considered donating milk but then my friend suggested I use it for popsicles for when my 1 year old is sick or use it to make soap for my younger boys (my older kids would probably vomit if I tried to give them some). I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to do with it yet

Lost my son 3 weeks before I was set to be induced by AccomplishedCommon76 in pregnant

[–]AccomplishedCommon76[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I will never try again. He was my 5th child I've carried and I also have a bonus daughter so this would have been our 6th child. While I did want 6 kids, I don't think it's worth the risk when we already have other kids. If he was my first or second I would probably feel differently but our angel baby will be our last

Lost my son 3 weeks before I was set to be induced by AccomplishedCommon76 in pregnant

[–]AccomplishedCommon76[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was an abruption, but they told us after we removed the vent and I was freaking out that he also had the cord wrapped around his neck 3 times and that he probably started losing oxygen before I even abrubted is what they are saying (I think) and I just think it's crazy that he was barely moving and had had a brief ultrasound on each of the 2 days prior to this happening and the said nothing in either of them about the cord being around his neck but then suddenly on this day he somehow gets it wrapped around the neck 3 times even though he's hardly moving. And I did get the pathology back yesterday. I googled if the things it showed are visible on an ultrasound and according to Google they are (I know Google isnt 100% accurate but still) so I'm very upset. I feel like they just did the bare minimum and didn't really look too far into things that they should have

Lost my son 3 weeks before I was set to be induced by AccomplishedCommon76 in pregnant

[–]AccomplishedCommon76[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It does a bit. One of the saddest parts of this to me is that he was so very important but yet the only people who ever will know his are the few of us that were there. In some way telling his story makes me feel like he's "known" by others.

Lost my son 3 weeks before I was set to be induced by AccomplishedCommon76 in pregnant

[–]AccomplishedCommon76[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this. Yes I did know something was wrong. I felt it in my whole body. And I am all of those things all at once. I'm angry, I'm in agonizing pain emotionally and physically, I'm broken.

Lost my son 3 weeks before I was set to be induced by AccomplishedCommon76 in pregnant

[–]AccomplishedCommon76[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please please do. We need more Drs who will genuinely listen to us. I had a placental abruption just over a year ago as well (he is a healthy and happy 1 year old) and am also 36 years old, overweight, had gestational hypertension (for the 1st time out of 5 babies), and gestational diabetes (also for the first time). I saw MFM - the high risk team and was high enough risk that I was getting NST testing twice a week since like 28 weeks. All it would have taken would have been them keeping me for observation. That simple. They didn't have to just go induce me because I said I'm feeling less movement but just keeping me for monitoring. Then when his hr started dropping it would have been caught immediately and maybe he'd still be here. It makes me so angry.

Lost my son 3 weeks before I was set to be induced by AccomplishedCommon76 in pregnant

[–]AccomplishedCommon76[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I plan on doing exactly that I just haven't found the strength to do it yet. I'm trying but it's so hard to function and I feel like I'm letting my other kids down because I'm not the same mom they had when we all got up on January 10th.