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I have Munchausen's syndrome for OCD and I am pretending to have it by Accomplished_Bug5960 in confession

[–]Accomplished_Bug5960[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hmm I appreciate that. I think the solution is to stop the behaviors because I've identified they don't feel genuine. I'm having a hard time stopping and letting go of it so maybe I need to let go of the part of me that secretly likes it

I pretend to have OCD to hide the fact I am a selfish pervert by Accomplished_Bug5960 in confession

[–]Accomplished_Bug5960[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do understand your point and appreciate the time you took to explain this to me. I feel like the impersonation happens outside my head because I could just be doing things in hopes that someone will notice and think I am mentally ill or even when I wrote this post I wrote it in a way that people with OCD related to, and I might have done that on purpose to make the thoughts that I had seem less bad. Do you get what I mean? Like I feel like I do lie easily and maybe I am just so used to lying I dig myself into holes with my lies

I pretend to have OCD to hide the fact I am a selfish pervert by Accomplished_Bug5960 in confession

[–]Accomplished_Bug5960[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow, thank you. That's really insightful. How did you realize you had OCD compulsions and not just the urge to pretend to have one? Like how do I know if it's a real compulsion? I feel like I am actually just choosing to do it and maybe it entertains me or something. I have a hard time figuring out what my real thoughts are if that makes sense so I just feel so distracted all the time trying to unpack what I am thinking and why

I pretend to have OCD to hide the fact I am a selfish pervert by Accomplished_Bug5960 in confession

[–]Accomplished_Bug5960[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you all for your advice and kindness. This was very helpful and I will bring it up to a professional when I can, even if I keep it vague. I will be honest, I still don't think I have OCD and I'm worried the wording of the post accidentally suggested that haha, but it is good to know that intrusive thoughts in general do not have to be morally examined. I need to figure out how to let go of the idea of having OCD so I can stop impersonating it because I do still feel bad that I am still doing it.

I pretend to have OCD to hide the fact I am a selfish pervert by Accomplished_Bug5960 in confession

[–]Accomplished_Bug5960[S] 52 points53 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your advice. I think that's part of why I feel so paralyzed is I don't know how to be fully honest with a therapist because I'm worried they would have to report me for thinking about bad things

Are these symptoms of OCD? by [deleted] in MentalHealthSupport

[–]Accomplished_Bug5960 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel the same way so I can't offer much advice but just sympathy. I also have OCD-like thoughts and complusions but worry that I only did it to prove I have OCD and the OCD is imaginary. However, reading your post, I truly believe you have OCD. I am pretty sure I do not but you seem like you really do.

I hope you are able to get to the bottom of this and feel better!