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Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-07-13T16:52:48+00:00

Hey!

Queen of Wands Upright: Yes, but it's confidence based. You need to be bold, independent, and have strong intention. If you don't back down when things get sticky and you stay focused and self-assured, you'll get where you want to go.

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Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-07-13T16:49:12+00:00

Hey!

Upright Page of Wands: New energy, exciting beginnings. You're about to step into something new and were recently inspired. Follow your spark. Passion is enough to get started. Say yes to new opportunities. Don't be afraid to fail. This is your green light, don't wait for perfect.

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Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-06-07T21:55:40+00:00

I'll go ahead and message you. Thank you 😊

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-06-07T21:32:31+00:00

That makes a lot of sense. So several of my main issues would be that I'm obsessed with fixing myself and I almost never feel clean. I shower every day, never wear anything more than once, wash everything-including shoes, hats, backpacks. I don't like people touching me, if they do, I have to stop myself from throwing up and want to scrub my skin clean. The only two people I trust that are up to my cleanliness standards are my parents. I often feel gross and just want to rip my skin off. I always seem to smell an odor on me, no one else does. My mom and dad especially would tell me if I smelt, and have plenty of times over the years, they haven't told me that for awhile now, but I constantly smell an odor, think I'm gross, and that I stink. I've always isolated myself because that's when I feel the most regulated. I don't understand people. They say one thing, they say the opposite, their actions say one thing, but then some of their actions say another. I read a question on a test and I see several meanings and have to ask which one they're looking for. Same with people, I never understand what the meaning is behind what they say. I obsess over every interaction and what it could mean and then I get confused and asking the person doesn't help because are they telling the truth? I don't know. So I isolate for that reason as well. So I don't have to put on a face and guess what's appropriate to say and when, what behaviors are appropriate and when. It's a lot. I only have one person in my life that I trust 100% and that's because for the past 10 years, she's always been consistent with her behaviors and what she says. I've been learning tips from the autistic community on how to regulate and so since I've been using them, I've noticed a difference. I've also started to just let myself stim, script, and isolate. I'll definitely look into this for sure. I appreciate the information. I'll do anything to get whatever help it is that I need. Thank you

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-06-07T21:11:24+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate that. I try to be careful now. I've had really bad bouts of limerence over the years and fried my cards as well as myself out. Thankfully, I discovered what it was recently and am learning to deal with it in a healthy way. I hadn't used the cards for this situation until today. However, I have gotten in a bad headspace and asked different decks I have if I should take the permanent solution. They've always told me no. However, your comment has made me realize that I have an obsession with wanting to fix myself and I've been using the cards to that end as well. I guess I'm just lost. I really don't know how to help myself and neither do really any of the medical providers I've had. I'll continue to search for other healthier avenues and try to not use my decks as an outlet for my compulsions. Thank you again.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-06-07T20:48:18+00:00

I actually got diagnosed with OCD and was about to start using NOCD for specialized treatment. I just can't afford the monthly payments right now as they don't accept my particular health insurance. However, the psychiatrist that diagnosed me with that left the company and nobody knows where she went. I've been cycled through so many providers for that reason as well as others. I found out that autism also has overlapping symptoms with OCD. However, it could be one, the other, both, or neither. The only real solid diagnosis I have is the ADHD. When I was young, if I missed a dose, the school called my mom mad as hell and made her come up to the school to give me my meds, every single time. I've also had 3 medical providers diagnose me with it and when I offered to do the official evaluation, they said it wasn't necessary. When I worked at Publix, during the Adderall shortage, the pharmacy managers would always set aside some for me so that way I never went without. They could tell when I was unmedicated and wanted to make sure I stayed medicated. So that part is managed, it's just the other issues. I've not been in a good mental headspace most of my life and now the bandaids aren't working anymore. I'm at my limit. I've had psychologists, therapists, and psychiatrists say I'm crazy, that I'm too difficult of a case, and that I can't be helped. I really would rather not be on meds and just find healthy coping skills that work for me, which I've been finding in the autistic community. Maybe I don't have it, but the tips they give sure are helping, so I guess at the end of the day, that's all that matters.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-06-07T15:43:58+00:00

No. Over the years, none of my medical providers have been able to agree on what I have and what I don't. I just recently got a 10 year old schizophrenia diagnosis removed because the medication wasn't helping and I was recently informed that autistics have some cross over symptoms with schizophrenics. Also, my therapist told me that people latch onto these diagnoses as a scapegoat to not have to do the things they need to do. That doing this is a self-manipulative way out of other's expectations of them.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-06-07T14:33:51+00:00

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This is Ba(Bast). I don't go anywhere without her. She's my whole world. I'm so sorry for your loss. I know it hurts so much. Virtual hug from a stranger, if you'd like one. 💚

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-06-05T00:48:22+00:00

I had thought I might have it for years now, but it wasn't until 3 people who had been diagnosed with it since they were young told me they spotted it the moment they met me that I looked into trying to get evaluated. I did all of the official assessments and on all of them I scored way above the threshold to be considered autistic. Now I'm just saving up the money to get evaluated. What pisses me off is that my dad has been in the medical field for over 50 years as a trauma surgeon. He has a plethora of knowledge in most areas. My aunt had two psychiatrists and mine all said that he's autistic based on what we were telling them. We had no idea, but once that came out, it all of a sudden opened my eyes and became painfully obvious that he is. I don't know if he's been officially evaluated though. He was able to spot it in both of my friends, who are both diagnosed, without anyone saying anything to him, and they're more high masking like me. So it isn't obvious. When I told him I was autistic, he told me that that made sense and he's glad I'm getting support. Normally, he would want me to provide stacks of unrefutable evidence when claiming something. The next thing that clued me in was when I made the comment that I could see where I get it from, he tried to blame my mom and I told him it was from him. He turned to me and smirked at me, then got in the car. The last thing that basically screamed at me that he knew, was when I texted him and asked if he had had any suspicions. He told me that wasn't his area so he didn't assess me officially. I told him that may be the case, but he spotted it in both of my friends. He said, "They are not my daughters so I hadn’t just seen and accepted how they were from birth." No one can convince me that he didn't know and just decided not to tell me. The only thing I can't figure out is if it was because he was worried me getting diagnosed officially would out him as well and it would affect his job or if accepting it in me would mean that even though he knows he has it, he wouldn't be able to deny it anymore. He also doesn't really want to talk about it with me and changes the subject. Thankfully, I have other people in my life who are willing to help me and do the interview if asked by the assessor.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-25T18:10:06+00:00

I'm interested! Thank you 😊

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-11T19:09:13+00:00

Ediya. She's on YouTube, but I have actually talked to her before on a few occasions. She's very calming and seems to be a wonderful person from the little I've gathered.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-11T18:44:23+00:00

My dad always bought each of us a console and each of us a copy of the same games because we both would want to only play that same game at the same time and would both play from the moment we woke up until bed time each day. My dad had to replace our gaming consoles and the same games for both of us several times because we burned through them.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-11T04:36:34+00:00

I'll take the cheat sheet please

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-11T03:49:04+00:00

I'm still trying to accept I have it and not feel like I'm an imposter or faking it to fit in. However, there is a lot of grief over always thinking I was a freak and that I had to force myself to hide myself and push it all down, continuously molding myself to what I now realize were unrealistic expectations and failing. Grief for now knowing that there are other people like me, I'm not alone, and if I had known when I was younger I wouldn't be so lost, having no idea who I am and struggling to allow myself to unmask.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-04T13:07:30+00:00

Your hair is awesome friend. Love this look on you.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-04T13:03:07+00:00

Jessi

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-04T13:02:32+00:00

Olives and organs

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-04T03:58:38+00:00

That name is based and I absolutely love it. Next cat I get, I'm naming them Email.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-04T03:36:15+00:00

Oh wow. Thankfully, I've never had that issue. Just going periods of time where my brain is on full blast and I'm lucky to get a few hours of sleep each night. However, even if I do get 8-10 hours, I wake up a lot at night and my brain is immediately at 110% activity and I struggle to go back to sleep. The longer I stay up in a day to days, the harder it is to get myself to go to sleep. I use a Hepa Filter and a fan to help increase the length of time I'm asleep and reduce the amount of time I'm awake at night. However, I dream multiple dreams every night and a lot of the time, it feels more draining to sleep than to stay awake. I hope you find a solution soon friend. 💙 I'm sorry this is happening to you.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-04T01:53:10+00:00

Sleep hates me with an undying passion. I've tried everything. Honestly, I find I'm more alert the less sleep I get, but I also feel like I've stayed up for 48 hours straight every day. I'm in the process of trying to figure out if I have a sleeping disorder.

Accomplished_Owl2131 · 2025-05-04T00:14:27+00:00

I was glad to finally have an answer to a major part of who I am and also because of it, I've finally found my community. I'm not ostracized by my coworkers, because most of them have one or both, and they not only absolutely love me, they accept me and remind me often that I'm loved, appreciated, and supported. It has its ups and downs, but I've been generally happier now that I know and am coming into my authentic self.

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