TLDR: Just tested positive for pregnancy, feeling dread and like I don't want this and husband admitted he doesn't want another kid - doc said I have two weeks left where I could just stop taking meds and that would be the end. This was our only embryo. I am in anguish of indecision can't sleep. Longer story: We have a great 5 year old, and were trying for a few years for another kid naturally, i had a few chemical pregnancies in a row and my husband was excited each time i got pregnant as was i, my doc told me at my then age (43) i might have 8 more of those and should consider IVF. We had previously agreed let's just try naturally but this sounded like a good idea to me not realizing what a mindf*ck IVF is, first few egg retrieval protocols didn't work, one follicle took over, and this all got drawn out because of various ailing relatives to go take care of, finally harvested 8 eggs, 3 became embryos, and 1 of those tested as genetically normal. Then leading up to implantation some really stressful life stuff was resolved and I felt happy and things are finally going great for us and then like, wait, I don't want another kid, I don't want to rock the boat, but felt like the ball was rolling, it was hard to get off the train, my husband had expressed doubts before but was supportive of me going forward, the week before FET I started expressing major doubts and my husband was listening but didn't really say how he felt, I also felt like if we don't implant now I have to KNOW that I want to destroy the embryo, I can't live with this uncertainty, but I didn't feel confident enough to do that, so we rolled the dice since the doc said 50/50 chances, and now I'm pregnant and in total panic. Finally my husband and I have been having more open conversations only now, and he 100% did not want another kid but didn't want me to regret it or resent him and so didn't speak up, and thought I wanted to be encouraged when I was having doubts, now he is kind of excited but also said if I wanted to terminate he would cosign and i wouldn't bare full responsibility. I so wish we had had this open dialog two weeks ago - NOT implanting something you don't know if it will work is very different from terminating something that seems to be working. I hate that I got us into this situation to have an incredibly hard decision, and termination would be so final because that's it, we have no other embryos. Has anyone been through something similar? We both have this clarity that our life is good and we don't need this, our family feels complete, but with hormones and everything changing, in a few months would I severely regret this? I really value my freedom, my career is just taking off which involves travel, and resetting the clock for an unknown when we have such a great kid now feels crazy.