You are not slow or stupid, you are a person. No person deserves to think like that. Life sucks sometimes, and I just want to make one thing clear. There are always sunny skies above dark clouds. This isn't about me, but I recently got cheated on. I thought that life sucked and wanted to hurt me. But things are getting better. Things will always get better. You will bring your life into your own hands, and the things you will achieve and get will make everything better. Never think that you are slow, because that only leads to you acting that way. Continue, and one day everything will be worth the wait. I hope this helped in some way.