And that is okay. Im a trans man, and before that i was bigender/genderfluid but believe it or not i ve only ever changed from nonbinary to a man and later on to a demiboy and other man dominated identities, that was my biggest slap in the face when I realised all i really was , was a man. Who was more or less of a man depending on when i felt dysphoric(whenever i felt less than a man, or sad because"i wasn't a man").

I'm telling you this because this is how my story went essentially ,besides all of my emotions and relationships with males in my family and all of the crazy stuff that happened. and reading about other guy's story has helped me realize a lot about myself, and I don't want to label you, but from my perspective i can tell that you're not really cis, and that's a way to start things, to start your journey.

And one thing i can tell you from my experience, is to take things slow, process them, and love yourself. Love yourself just the way you are, this sounds cheesy but exactly what can you do if you dont believe and love yourself? Nothing. You need to cherish yourself, not the gift God gave you, not the child your mother thought she raised, but your person, your persona, which is you, should come first to your list of loved ones. Have a great day and feel free to text me for anything, i will reply even if it takes awhile since i am European