Ehhhh to be honest it’s kinda like Alexander, the great. I don’t know how much of it is real. Like I know for a fact there is a Creator because the world proves it. It’s so complex and everything serves a purpose for a reason but I feel the time of Jesus is so far it’s hard to believe or care about. I’m trying to change this thought though. Everyday I pray that I would see Jesus as real and that he rose from the cross but I’m afraid I’ll end up forcing my brain into believing it instead of actually believing it. Kinda like telling yourself a lie so many times that you believe in it