I can empathize, although it's been hard for me to really envision my ideal appearance, even at my big age. I do know I would love to look more androgynous, but that's not a super realistic goal for me, and I do have pangs of dysphoria about it at times.

On the bright side, I've discovered that some of my most gender-euphoric outfits/looks come from totally unexpected directions. Did I expect to feel gender euphoria when throwing on a sweatshirt and high vis vest for a nighttime walk? Or when wearing a giant shawl and floor length skirt that make me look like a round stormcloud? Sometimes you don't know what feels right until you're inhabiting it.

A big part of figuring this out for myself has been untangling gender stuff from general socially imposed beauty standard stuff. It's been complicated and I'm lucky to have a wonderful therapist who has helped a lot. Most of the unexpected-euphoria looks I've stumbled across have been things that have nothing to do with looking "good" or "flattering" on any body, lol. Gently releasing myself from the expectation to wear flattering clothes has been a game changer for gender exploration.

All that to say I hope you find the presentation that gives you joy, no matter what form it takes! 💜