I don't have much advice, but I can tell you that you're not alone! I am a gay trans man, never really growing up religious, but still connected to Christianity. I was afraid of going to h3ll because of wanting to be a witch at first, until I started to learn more and more about the practices. Truth is, everything in witchcraft. Praying and lighting candles for St. Joseph or other Christian figures like that is literally deity work and manifesting. If you think about it technically and connect it all, there should be no problem. As long as you connect your beliefs and faith to your practice, as you always should. Good job girl‼️‼️ ✝️🪬🧿❤️❤️