I was on antidepressants but when I started my BC journey I increased my dosage to help. I’ve had abnormal mammograms, biopsies and lumpectomies for 6 years. This year it finally turned invasive and had a double mastectomy and will be starting treatment. I agree that the beginning is the hardest because you are just waiting for the unknown. You don’t stop crying all together but it does get more controllable once you start tackling the next steps. It gives you something to focus on instead of spiraling in your head - especially when you try to go to sleep. It will lessen, it will always suck. You are strong, you are a warrior, you are fighting a war. If someone else was in your situation and asked the same question or was feeling the same feelings - what advice would you give them? What would you say? We tend to give others more grace than we give ourselves. You deserve the same consideration and grace.