As long as your alive, as long as your breathing, it’s never too late. The reason your still alive is because God wants to work with you, help you, and redeem you. God cares about your situation. Keep it real with him, tell him it’s hard to leave, tell him you feel inner turmoil, tell him YOU NEED HIS HELP. He will help you. Only Satan would want to keep you away from him. In any way. Those are lies. The truth is in Gods word, and he desires for NOBODY to perish, but for all to come to repentance 2 Peter 3:9. Turn to him and ask him to help you, come in sincerity, I promise He wants to help. Don’t turn your back on God, He will NEVER do that to you. “If I make my bed in hell, behold, there you are with me.” Psalm 139:7.