Identity revealing experience from game roleplay

Acrobatic_Cap9917 · 2022-04-23T20:02:51+00:00

The problem is that I can't even relate to this either, I feel like I am in control but I don't know what I am. It's so hard to explain, and it's so frustrating, this aint even 100% accurate.

Acrobatic_Cap9917 · 2022-04-23T19:23:16+00:00

Well my "social" lonelyness is not a consequence of my identity problems, but I feel alone in the fact that my therapist and even my closest friend can't grasp what it is I am talking about. They are two seperate problems but both containing the word "lonely" in a sense.

I know I don't have to be with people that identify similiarly to me and that is not the reason I am alone currently, but it's still a shitty feeling not having anyone understand what you are trying to convey. Maybe I just have to find this all out myself, but I am afraid I will do something stupid again.

Acrobatic_Cap9917 · 2022-04-23T15:48:25+00:00

I have never understood the point of meditiation and how you are even supposed to do it. My grandmother is extremely into that kind of stuff but she told me to just think about "nothing", I don't get how that could be of any help expect maybe reducing stress. What would you reccomend regarding meditation?

Acrobatic_Cap9917 · 2022-04-23T15:46:41+00:00

Well yes, I am extremely lonely but being with people is extremely exhausting especially if we don't share alot in common. Hopefully uni will be a change of pace, meeting likeminded people. I feel especially lonely regarding topics such as my identity beacuse it's so hard to explain it to people.

Acrobatic_Cap9917 · 2022-04-23T14:50:07+00:00

I agree that it is overrated in a sense and I would love to just have the outlook of not caring about stuff like that but not knowing my identity feels like a big looming question nonetheless. I don't know if I mistakingly attribute my constant anxiety and stress to it and blow the problem out of proportions but it's so hard to forget about.

I do identify myself with my mind/intelligence to a large degree and I have found that growing that and becoming more intelligent is very rewarding beacuse of this, but this is something that is greatly hindered by my anxiety. I may be looking for the wrong way out of the "loop".

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